A Ram in the Bush

And let us not lose heart and grow weary and faint in acting nobly and doing right, for in due time and at the appointed season we shall reap, if we do not loosen and relax our courage and faint.
Galatians 6:9 (Amplified Bible)

First, GOD ROCKS!!!! Okay, now that I have gotten that out! As you know, Smurfette has passed on to that great junkyard in the sky. But God is so faithful because I did not miss one day of work. Nor did she give out on the freeway or side of the road. I was never stranded with or without the kids. God is so faithful.

Yesterday, I went out to look for a new car. I called my dad from the dealership because I haven't purchased a new car in about five (5) years and I really needed his help. Initially, I looked at a Toyota Corolla but after some research my dad advised it was not worth the money. Plus, it was just too darn small.

But while at the dealership, not ONE salesperson acknowledged me. Even my dad commented about it because he had a good 30 or 40 minute conversation as I walked around the lot. So, I got in the car and left. I was determined to not return to that lot. I figured no one wanted my money.

Today after church, I arrived home and there was a message on the machine from a representative of the dealership. I thank her for the call but advised that I would not be returning to the location. She connected me to her supervisor.

I explained the situation to the supervisor and explained that I did not see anything that I wanted so I would look elsewhere. (I found a minivan at another dealership that I had planned to visit on Monday.) I explained this to the manager and he told me he would meet or beat the price of the vehicle that I wanted because he didn't have that model. So I made an appointment to go to the dealership and look at the minivan in stock.

The finance manager was waiting for me and was very kind. He apologized again for the poor service at the other dealership and showed me the minivan. I LOVED IT! It was better than the one I planned to drive the next day. The seats fold down into the floor creating a cargo space without actually removing the seats. Also, there is wood grain on the dashboard, CD and cassette (required for my MP3 connection), power everything, and more. The best part, I got it for $2,000 below sticker price and 2% off my interest rate! Now you understand why I started out with the statement GOD ROCKS!

In January, the heat stopped working in the explorer. So I just put blankets in the car and bundled up the kids. I wore my mittens and prayed all the way to work. In September (one of the hottest months of the year) the air stopped working. But even then, I would run errands early and return home.

God just keeps blessing me. I found a nanny for my children which cuts my monthly daycare expense in half. My car payment is actually very decent. God is so faithful.

Presenting, my 2007 Chrysler Town and Country Mini-Van, whose name is Fabulous,(really, did you expect anything else?):

Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever.
Hebrews 13:8 (New King James Version)

All That Remains

This license plate is all that remains of Smurfette: my 1995 Ford Explorer.


I was disappointed that the car could not be donated to the breast cancer foundation. Because the transmission was removed, the foundation would not accept the car. However, God always as a back-up plan. With the help of a friend, I was able to donate the car to a Christian organization. Something good resulted from my loss.

While in conversation with a friend, I said, "Smurfette was on life support and finally died." To which she replied, "Good! She's been in hospice for months!" HA!

The tow truck driver showed up at the transmission repair shop about 2 hours earlier than I had arranged. Thankfully, the gentleman that I had been working with was kind enough to remove the plate and released the vehicle even though I hadn't paid for the work yet. He trusted me to come in at 1:15p, as I had arranged, to pay the balance. And I did.

Initially, I was sad because I didn't get a picture of Smurfette before she was taken away. But I see God's hand in that as well. I am glad that she was picked up and I was not there. The explorer was a piece of my past. This year is all about moving forward in Christ Jesus.

So, what am I going to do about a new car? Well, I will do what King Jehoshaphat did: while surrounded by armies on three sides, he "set himself to seek the LORD, and proclaimed a fast throughout all Judah." 2 Chronicles 20:3 (Holman Christian Standard Bible).

"Then Jehoshaphat stood in the assembly of Judah and Jerusalem in the LORD's temple before the new courtyard. He said:
LORD God of our ancestors, are You not the God who is in heaven, and do You not rule over all the kingdoms of the nations? Power and might are in Your hand, and no one can stand against You. Are You not our God who drove out the inhabitants of this land before Your people Israel and who gave it forever to the descendants of Abraham Your friend?" 2 Chronicles 20:5-7 (Holman Christian Standard Bible).

"This is what the LORD says: 'Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast multitude, for the battle is not yours, but God's." 2 Chronicles 20: 15.

Saturday Outing

The kids and I went to the Phoenix Zoo this morning with a woman I met at church named Lorie and her three children: Kayla (12), Olivia (3), and JD (2).

We started out at the carosel ride and NyCee was not to keen on the ride at first. The animals were way too big but she saw Olivia getting on one so she decided she would try it. All was cool until the ride was set in motion and the animals went up and down. Lorie had to hold on to her the entire time and remind her that it was safe.

Of course when the ride ended, she wanted to ride again - isn't that always the case?

The Phoenix Zoo is really very well kempt and easy to maneuver. NyCee and Olivia had the most fun running down the hills.

As we walked around we made it to the Fisher Price play area where NyCee and JD were in heaven. What is it with kids who'd rather play with the sand than the toy sculptures?

Tyler slept most of the morning.
I have probably lost 5 lbs from all the walking - not complaining.
It was a beautiful 76 degrees today. The sky was clear and blue. It was a little chilly but with all the walking, we warmed up quickly.

To God Be the Glory

The deal for a new mini van did not pan out.

The transmission is kerplunky on my truck.

I don't know what I am going to do. But I know that God has provided for me and my children all this time. He knows that I have to go to work. He knows that I need a car to do that. Because He parted a sea and the Israelites crossed on dry land and then closed the sea which drowned their enemies, He will provide transportation for me. And when He does, it will be in such a way that only He gets the glory!


So I'm not giving up. How could I! Even though on the outside it often looks like things are falling apart on me, on the inside, where God is making new life, not a day goes by without His unfolding grace. These hard times are small potatoes compared to the coming good times, the lavish celebration prepared for me. There's far more here than meets the eye. The things we see now are here today, gone tomorrow. But the things we can't see now will last forever.

2 Corinthians 4:17-18 (The Message)

Familiar Scene

NyCee at nine (9) months old:

Tyler at nine (9) months old:

The difference:

NyCee screamed and screamed until she finally feel asleep in that position.

Tyler plays quietly in his crib during nap and bedtime and then just falls asleep.

With training, parenting does get easier. The first kid is the test case. HA!

Slight Pang of Guilt

Tonight, I decided I would have a date night. After all, I deserve some alone time. Plus I believe it is healthy. With that noted, I went to have a pedicure and a manicure. This was really a treat for me as it has been nearly two (2) years since I have been to the nail spa.

There was a time when that was a bi-monthly routine. But other things became a priority.

As I walked into the spa, I felt a little pang of guilt. I began to think, "Really Dayna, this $40 could be used for something else." But I really couldn't think of anything that was needed with the $40.

I went shopping for the kids' summer clothes last week. (It will be in the 80s beginning next month. Again, this is why I traveled through the wilderness to get to the Promised Land-Ha!) But seriously, as a single mom, I am constantly thinking of my kids and planning ahead. I very rarely buy myself anything anymore.

While I recognize that is not healthy, it's my reality. First God, then my babies. But after wrestling with my mind that it's okay for me to spend the $40, I sat in the chair and relaxed. It's amazing how much more you appreciate something when it is gone and then restored.
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On a different thought, I was trying to decide what to do with Smurfette when I take delivery of the new mini-van. (A few months ago I picked out a name for my new car. Her name is Fabulous. Because God is just so tremendously FABULOUS!) Anyway, I didn't want to sell or trade-in the car. So I surfed the Internet and found the perfect solution.

As many of you know, my cousin Cari is a breast cancer survivor. Additionally, two of my co-workers at my weekend job are survivors as well. Because this illness has touched the lives of people dear to me, I support breast cancer research anyway possible. I buy products with the pink ribbon if it's an item I need and I only buy breast cancer stamps from the post office. Yes, these things may be slightly more expensive but the proceeds benefit thousands of woman and their families.

With that said, Smurfette will be donated to cars for breast cancer.

Be generous: Invest in acts of charity. Charity yields high returns.

Don't hoard your goods; spread them around.
Be a blessing to others.
Ecclesiastes 11:1-2a (The Message)

"Did you know?"

"Hi. Did you know that Martin Luther King was black and he was shot?"

I was greeted with that question this afternoon. It was asked by my 7 or 8 year neighbor.

I replied, "Yes, I did."

I smirked to myself as I saw her mother turning beet red.

Kids really say the darnest things.

Tuckered Out

Dinner time + quiet crib play time + a warm bath + an 8 ounce bottle =


one tuckered out little boy!

Tyler had his 9 month check up yesterday. He is a perfectly, healthy, little boy. He didn't cry when he had to get a finger poke or one immunization shot. The nurse commented, "Wow, he is such a good boy!"
I was proud of my little man. He didn't even flinch when the nurse administered both shots. He just wanted to play with the blue band-aid that was placed on his finger.

Excitement At Every Turn

My gosh, today was a very exciting day.

The Arizona Cardinals are going to the Superbowl for the first time--ever! In honor of that victory, the EFC (I think that's correct) trophy was on display in the lobby of my office building.

The first Black Man took the oath for the presidency. (While I do not agree with many of President Obama's positions, I consider it a honor to be witness to such a historic event.)

Tyler almost sat up by himself from the laying down position. He sits up by himself but has not yet learned how to raise himself up to the sitting position. But he is getting there.

I picked out the color for my new Mini Van. Yep! That's right. I am a mini-van mama. When I post the pictures, you will be amazed. God is so awesome and has blessed me so much. My mini-van is like the James Bond version of all mini-vans. I just have to wait for delivery. YIPEE!!!!!

And the cake topper of the day: it was a beautiful 79 degrees, clear blue sky with hand painted cloud whisps against the mountain backdrop.

You turned my wailing into dancing;
you removed my sackcloth and clothed me with joy,

that my heart may sing to you and not be silent.
O LORD my God, I will give you thanks forever.
Psalm 30:11-12 (NIV)

Mobility Begins

Yesterday, Tyler transitioned from rolling all around the room to the army crawl. He hasn't gotten up on his knees yet; rather, he pulls himself to his destination using his arms.

Crawling will follow shortly.

Oops!

There are times when routine is a problem. Case in point:

Yesterday, I stopped to put gas into the truck. For whatever reason, the machine would not accept my debit card. So I had to go to the window and pay for the gas.

I returned to my vehicle, pumped the gas, got back in the car and pulled away.

I arrived at church, exited the vehicle and noticed the gas door was still open. I looked on top of the truck and the gas cap was missing.

My normal routine is to unscrew the gas cap, sit it on top of the truck, pump the gas and while I am waiting for the receipt to print, I secure the gas cap in place.

Because I had to divert from the routine, my sequence of steps were out of order. Thus resulting in the need for me to stop, after I picked up the kids from daycare, at the auto parts store to replace the gas cap.

Okay, so really I can try and blame it on routine but in reality, I should have doubled checked to be sure the cap was on. Needless to say, that will not happen again.

Something to do

Like my son who decided to stick his legs through the crib bars, on Saturday nights- I just need something to do. So, I still work my second job.

I do not work the job for the money. I write that because my friend called and asked how in the world do I manage to do all the things that I do with two small kids. I replied, "God's grace."

A couple of weeks ago, I sat down and wrote a letter of resignation to the nursery director because I was working seven (7) days a week. That is unhealthy. But I really enjoying working at the church on Saturday nights.

I am well cared for, which is truly a blessing. Therefore, I do not need to work the weekend job. I just do it because I need something to do on Saturdays nights.

I have modified my schedule so that I only work two (2) weekends a month. That was my compromise. Working two weekends a month allows me to continue doing the work that I enjoy and having some free time to myself for a few hours.

So, like Tyler who sticks his legs through the crib bars when he needs something to do; I continue to work my second job just to have something to do.

"Where do you live?"

As a project in school, NyCee had to select where she lives. The choices: an apartment, a house, or a castle. NyCee's choice:

A CASTLE! SWEET! That girl dreams big!

"As it is written, I have made you the father of many nations. [He was appointed our father] in the sight of God in Whom he believed, Who gives life to the dead and speaks of the nonexistent things that [He has foretold and promised] as if they [already] existed." Romans 4:17 Amplified Bible

Un-fabulous report

I arrived at daycare to pick up the kids after work. One of NyCee's teachers asked if I had spoken with the other teacher. I replied, "No, I have not." Immediately, I am not pleased with that question.

In speaking with the "lead" teacher, I learned that NyCee decided to turn up her nose, stick out her tongue, and defy the teacher's instructions. Now, I am definitely NOT pleased.

Under no circumstances do I allow tantrums, sassy talk, or disrespectful behavior. I had to refrain from laying my hands on her in the director's office.

NyCee apologized to her teacher and I explained my position and that I support a time-out for the exhibited behaviors.

When we arrived home and I was getting NyCee out of the truck, she looked up and said, "I am sorry mommy for school." I thanked her for apologizing and reminded her of my expectations.

I was mortified to have to speak to the teacher about my child's behavior. This is not a situation to be repeated.

First Name Basis

"Dayna, may have have something to drink please?"

At first glance, there is nothing wrong with that question. However, when asked by one's two year old daughter, it tends to throws one for a loop.

While I recognize that my child is highly intelligent, I am trying to figure out when she learned my first name.

2008: An Amazing Year!

Wow! What can I say about 2008? For me, it was a year of great growth.

Tyler was added to my family.

A MBA was added to my list of degrees.

A new job was added to my life.

A new home in the city I want to live in.

A WONDERFUL new church where I am growing spiritual.

I think back on the year and it's all positive. The "up" moments definitely out weigh the "down" times.

All day, I have had a great sense of joy and excitement. I just know that even better things are coming in 2009. Dreams becoming realities. Prayers being answered. Exponential growth in my career.

2009 will be absoulutely FABULOUS! I encourage you to take some time to reflect on all the blessings that God has bestowed on your life. Everything may not have followed your exact plan, but trust and believe in God's plan for your life.

So as we wait for the bells to ring and confetti to fall, lift your hands and voices to the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords and thank Him for His goodness and mercy which have brought you this far.

Hallelujah! Praise God in his holy house of worship,
praise him under the open skies;
Praise him for his acts of power,
praise him for his magnificent greatness;
Praise with a blast on the trumpet,
praise by strumming soft strings;
Praise him with castanets and dance,
praise him with banjo and flute;
Praise him with cymbals and a big bass drum,
praise him with fiddles and mandolin.
Let every living, breathing creature praise God!
Hallelujah!

Psalm 150 (The Message)

Photo with Santa

Instead of taking NyCee and Tyler to the mall for a picture with Santa, I was able to take them to my job. It was a very nice event because only the children of HR employees were allowed in the event.

Prior to talking to Santa, NyCee attempted to have a tantrum because she was told to "wait her turn." Well, she didn't take that news kindly and that resulted in a trip to the bathroom. (I am sure you can deduce what happened next.)

Once we returned to the room, NyCee was on her best behavior. Co-worker commented about how cute she was and well-behaved. She grew more and more excited as "her turn" to see Santa approached.

Finally the big moment arrived.

"Mommy, Santa! Santa."

"Yes, pumpkin cake. It is Santa. Say Hi."




After all of that, she sat on Santa's lap and cried her head off. Go figure!

(Sorry the pictures are so small. I haven't quite figured out all the bells and whistles of my scanner. Heck, I just figured out how to scan the picture.)

The Best Christmas Ever!...So Far....

This morning around 1:30a NyCee came into my room holding a box of crayons. (As a child, my parents used to leave the Christmas tree illuminated. I did the same thing so I am sure it drew NyCee's attention. I did not get her initial reaction as I was sound asleep.) But once in my room,

She said, "Mommy, look."

I replied, "What's that baby?"

"Come here. Come see, Mommy." As she proceeded into the living room.

When I followed behind her, she said, "Ta-dah! Christmas."

She began to jump up and down saying, "Dora. Dora." So we sat down and opened a few of the gifts and I let her play for about 30 or 40 minutes. Then, we went back to bed. I had to let her sleep in my bed with her new Dora pillow as a bribe to get some sleep.



Almost simultaneously, NyCee tapped me on the head asking if she could play while Tarisa was sending a text message asking if we were awake. The time was around 715a. I managed to get myself out of the bed, wash my face, brush my teeth and lead NyCee to the living room. Tyler was still sleeping soundly. (He woke up around 530a but I quickly changed his diaper and gave him a bottle so that he would go back to sleep.)


Around 800a, both kids were up and playing. Although NyCee played with Tyler's toys, she brought them over to him saying, "Here buddy. Play with this one."

By 1130a, she was pooped. So, I laid her down for a nap as we were invited over to Lorie and Dan's (a couple from my church) for dinner. Lorie and Dan have agreed to serve as a mentor family for NyCee and Tyler. To me, it is important they see a Christian family unit. In turn, I will serve as a mentor to their 12 year old daughter Kayla.

We enjoyed dinner at Lorie's and then returned home around 630p. I was even blessed with several gifts from friends who were single moms in the past and wanted me to have gifts to open today as well. I am constantly amazed at how God shows his love for me.

Our night ended with Tyler pooping all up his back and on the bed sheets--sweet! But thankfully, it was before his bath. Then, I popped a big bowl of popcorn and the kids and I watched a Care Bear Movie NyCee received as a Christmas gift.

It was cold and rainy here today. (Temps in the low 50s) But it was truly the best Christmas Ever--so far.

The Sky is the Limit

While sitting here preparing to be Santa Claus, I was thinking about how far I have come in just one year. But as I deleted the link for my school from my favorites section, I thought of my parents.


My father completed his Master's degree about 3 or 4 years ago. I believe he started this drive for education in my family. While it took him, literally 20 years, to complete his undergraduate studies, he completed it nonetheless. Given the fact that he had a family to support, he could not just attend school on a regular basis. Somehow, my mother always "found" the money to aid in his educational pursuit and now today, he is living off the harvest of his investment.

My mother decided to return to school when Tarisa was about 16 years old. She realized that in two years she would no longer be just a mom and decided to pursue a career. She graduated from Wayne County Community College with a 4.0 gpa which earned her a presidential scholarship to complete her undergraduate work. Few people know that was the second full scholarship my mother received from Wayne State University. But because of Talisha's illness, she was unable to take advantage of the opportunity the first time. But when we are faithful to God, He always restores the sacrifices we make. This past summer, my mother completed her Master's degree and is now working on her Education Specialist degree which will propel her into the administrative aspect of education.

In June 2006, I began working on my undergraduate degree-again. I completed 1/2 of the program when I lived in Chicago, IL. But I needed 90 credits to finish the degree. My undergraduate degree was conferred in September 2007. As of Monday, December 22, 2008, all final grades have been posted and I will receive my Master of Business Administration Degree in Human Resources Management. Again, I completed the degree in 15 months. My final g.p.a is a 3.8. Initially, I was slightly disappointed with the "B" but I am not defined by my grades. And given all that I have endured over the past year, I am pretty darn proud of myself! Praise God for His strength and joy which helped me to stay the course with my eyes on Him.



Tarisa completed her Associate of Arts degree in San Francisco, CA and is now in school to complete her Bachelor's degree.

Boonie has completed several certification courses over that past few years and holds various certificates. Recently, she has enrolled in a cosmetology program to upgrade her certifications.

Since completing my degrees, I have truly come to understand that ABSOLUTELY ANY THING is possible. If I can think it, with God, I can achieve it!

Jesus said to him, “If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.”
Mark 9:23 (New King James Version)

"Merry Christmas Lights"

NyCee saw the dentist today and am I pleased to report she did not damage her permanent teeth or nerves. Praise God!


Every day on the drive home, NyCee exclaims, "Mommy, Merry Christmas Lights!" I have attempted to explain the difference but then she just responds with "Why?" I am not sure when this "why" phase began but it needs to come to an abrupt halt.

Monday Madness

I must re-iterate to my children the importance of not participating in sickness and drama. Last Monday, I had to leave work because Tyler had a fever of 102 degrees. After waiting at the doctor's office for 2 hours, which we never do, she prescribed Amoxicillin for a "slight" ear infection. He is much better.

Today, I had to leave work to take him to see the surgeon. The surgeon is very nice and that visit lasted less than 1 hour. His surgery will be scheduled after the New Year.

Okay, he is situated.



NyCee was able to go to daycare today. She spent most of the time showing off the injury rather than feeling the effects of it. She has an appointment with the dentist in the morning.

I could literally sleep for a week as I am so tired. Thankfully, her appointment is at 940a so we can sleep in for an extra hour or so in the morning.

Sunday Smackdown

Well, this morning we got up and got dressed for church. Ate breakfast and out the door--no problems there.

We arrived at church and both kids were checked into King's Castle.--No problem there.

I proceeded to the sanctuary, grabbed a seat and waited for praise and worship to begin--no problems there.

I enjoyed praise and worship and just as the offering receptacles were passing by, I received a text message to report to King's Castle--problem there.

I reported to NyCee's room and learned she had fallen and busted her lip. But one of my weekend co-workers told me, "her tooth is pushed back." And sure enough.

My co-worker told me NyCee didn't cry but she (the co-worker) noticed NyCee holding the ice to her tooth versus her lip.

So, I left Tyler at church and went one block up the road to the Urgent Care Center. NyCee is fine and the tooth is not loose. But I have to find a pediatric dentist to ensure the root was not damaged.

Looking at the positive side: It is a baby tooth and would have fallen out anyway. So she will not have any damage to her permanent teeth or smile.

And, Christmas photos where already taken.

Up He Sits

Tyler has been practing sitting up. While he is still cannot lift himself to the sitting position, he has grown fond of being upright. Usually, I just put him on the floor on a blanket and let him play. Lately, he has been rolling all over the place. For example, last night, I placed him on the blanket while I decorated the Christmas Tree. When I turned around, he was nearly under the tree!

NyCee seems to like the fact that he can sit up as well. She enjoys plays with him and often invites him to watch Dora or Blue's Clues with her. The picture below lacks sharpness and precision. (I need a new camera. The one I have is cheap so pictures rarely turn out nice. But it was free-so I do not complain.)But, I tried to capture this kiss to freeze the moment in time.

Step 1

Saturday, I took the night off from my weekend job to grocery shop and pick up the kids' Christmas items. Everything went very smoothly and I did not wait in any long lines.

I found a Christmas tree at Kmart for $40. So last night after church, I put the kids to bed and put the tree together. I thought it would be a nice surprise for NyCee when she woke up this morning. And it was. (Side thought: She was in my room yesterday looking for her house slippers and discovered her Dora table and chairs set under my bed. She bounced up and exclaimed, "Mommy, Dora. Dora. Can I play with Dora?" Of course, I had to play it off as if I didn't know what she was talking about. Thankfully, she has forgotten about it.)

Anyway, returning to the story. NyCee has made a couple of Christmas Tree ornaments at church and has been asking to put them on the tree for days. So I told her we would decorate the tree when she came home from "school." I even remembered to call my father this morning and ask how to put the lights on the tree.

We arrived home and sat down to dinner. Before receiving her after dinner treat, NyCee decided she would have a tantrum. As the consequence for that decision, she did not recieve her treat and we were unable to decorate the tree as I will not reward or tolerate bad behavior. So, we will try to get the tree decorated on Thursday. I managed to complete the first two tasks: out of the box and assembled.




I think it a really cute tree for $40. It's nice and full. You can not see the stick in the middle. I am sure it will be fabulous when it's decorated.

A Simple Prayer Answered

Today, a new guy started at work whose name is Greg. He secured the position due to a vacancy which resulted from a resignation. From a simple resignation, many prayers were answered.

Unbeknownst to each of us, Greg and I interviewed for the position that I have at the same time. Of course, I was selected for the initial opening. Since my arrival, three (3) openings have become available.

I did not like working 8-5p. Today, my manager offered me the 730a-430p time slot. Of course, I jumped at it. So my prayer was answered. Yes, it is only a 30 minute time difference but that 30 minutes makes a BIG difference.

Due to the vacancy, Greg was offered the position that he really wanted but was offered to me. Both prayers were answered. I work an earlier shift and Greg got the position he really wanted. God's timing is impeccable.

I am constantly amazed by God. He always takes care of everything.

"Aren't five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten in God's sight. Indeed, the hairs of your head are all counted. Don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows!"

Luke 12:6-7(Holman Christian Standard Bible)

A Full Week Completed

This was my first FULL week of working full-time. I started the job on a Tuesday and my second week was Thanksgiving week. Wednesday the schedule caught up with my body. I sat down on the couch for a moment to try and get some energy and woke up to the sound of my phone alerting.

I told myself that I would lay down for about 2 hours to re-charge and then wake up to complete my schoolwork. When I woke up it was 500a--time to rise and shine. So needless to say, I was pretty pooped.

Work is progressing well. I really like the job. The atmosphere is very comfortable and my VP even commented that I fit right in as if I had been there all the time. I think the way cases are processed is a little odd but hey, I just go with it. For example, when I conclude an investigation, I have to get VP approval before I can issue discipline. That is strange to me. Discharge, yes. Discipline, I should have the authority to execute. But again, whatever!

I have been working for 12 days and have managed to close 4 cases, administer one discharge, process 3 written warnings and 1 termination warning. WOW! It's like riding a bicycle. Once you learn, you never forget how to do it.

As for the kids, NyCee is talking more and more everyday. She is a funny little girl with the comments she makes. She has learned a new phrase, "Good stuff Mommy!" (I wonder where she picked up that statement.-HA!)



Tyler is getting big and finally sleeping in his own bed all night. When he goes to sleep at 730p, he is in his bed. But when he wakes up around 1230p or so, I would just put him in the bed with me so that I could go back to sleep. BAD! BAD! I know but hey, I am doing the best I can.

The pile of laundry was finally ironed and put away. Of course, a new pile is in it's place. Only 2 weeks of school remaining. Of course, my Internet has been hit or miss this week. I am so far behind on my school work this week because I can't log into class. The work will be completed, the final grades posted, and my degree conferred. So, as I like to say, "no worries."

15 days and counting....

There are 15 days remaining until I am finish with my graduate program. And I am really counting the days. I am so tired of school work! Good Gravy! But I can see the finish line ahead.

My Internet services sucks and works when it wants to. Thus, it is making it challenging for me to complete my final two projects. One professor granted an extension. I have not received a response from the other yet.

You know what? I will complete all that I can by Friday for submission. I can not stress myself out over it.

I constantly pray for strength. Working two jobs, completing two classes, raising two children alone is no joke! But God gives me the grace to run my race and thankfully He holds everything together for me.

The blog postings will be few over the next couple of weeks as I try to focus my energy on completing school. Hang in there with me.

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
Phillipians 4:13

Date Night

I called my grandparents in Alabama on Thanksgiving to check on them and extend Thanksgiving day greetings. At one point in the conversation, my granddad asked if I had anyone special in my life yet. I replied, "No, sir. Legally and morally, Lewis and I are still married even though we have been separated over a year." My grandfather was thinking about NyCee and Tyler and does not want a lot of men around them. I reassured him that was NOT an option. I will not parade different men in and out of my children's lives.

But it started me thinking about an actual date. If in fact I were to go on a date what would I do? I have an idea! I would invite him over to help me wash, dry, iron and fold the pile of laundry that just keeps growing!


The clothes on the chair are clean. The clothes on the couch are clean and in three piles. Each pile represents me, NyCee and Tyler. The pile of clothes on the floor has yet to make it to the washing machine. Oh, did I mention the clothes on the couch are from last week's laundry day?Now, if I could just find the time to iron and fold them, I would be happy has a little lark.

So my idea of a date night: dinner and laundry. Heck, I am willing to forego dinner if he would just help with the laundry.

God's Promise

As I exited the parking lot this evening after work, I saw this rainbow in the sky. Immediately, I began to think of all the promises God has made to His children. Those promises are made available through the blood of Jesus Christ.

How appropriate for the rainbow to appear the day before Thanksgiving? It reminded me of all the things for which I am thankful and that God never forgets His promises. Tomorrow can always better than today if you expect it to be.


"For all the promises of God in Him are Yes, and in Him Amen, to the glory of God through us."

2 Cor 1:20

Pearly Whites

Tyler's bottom two teeth have finally broken through. I was amazed when I noticed his teeth coming in so soon. His doctor stated that 6 months is the average age when babies start teething. NyCee didn't get teeth until she was close to 9 months old, I think.

Anyway, like his sister, he attempted to bite me one time while nursing. I think all babies try it. But like I stated, it was one time and he has not tried it again.

He loves to show off his little teeth by smiling and cooing. When he smiles, you can really see his dimples.

Progressive Blessings

Well, today marks my second week of working full-time. As I was thinking about my journey these past few months, I realized that a progression of blessings occurred every 30 days since moving back to Phoenix.

08/18: Moved to Phoenix,

09/18: Starting working my week end part-time job,

10/20: Began training as a school bus driver,

11/18: Began working full-time job,

12/18: I will have a Master of Business Administration Degree.

Isn't that awesome? I have truly come to believe that it is all in how you perceive a situation. For example: the news reported the unemployment rate is up to 6%. Now initially, that appears to be unpleasant news. However, considering that is taking into account the entire country, that means 94% of the population is gainfully employed or sustaining themselves.

I used that example because your perception will shape your reality.

Last year this time I didn't know which way was up. My husband and I separated, I learned I was pregnant with Tyler, I had to live with my parents (in the frozen tundra of Michigan) and collect state assistance, I loss my home, credit, possessions, etc. But today, I do not look at my life through those eyes. Today, I have beautiful healthy children, on the verge of having two college degrees, an opportunity to pursue a PhD, two jobs that I enjoy (when there are people who can not get one job), I live where I want to live, I have a church home that I love, friends, family, a fully furnished home, no debt, a vehicle with no car payment. My God! I am so blessed. And actually I just learned that my employer offers a 75% discount off of tuition for a doctoral program. The problem is that my program is not offered. But I can get another Master's degree, if I so choose, for free!

My heartfelt prayer to God is that my journey will help someone else reach his/her destiny. It was hard some times. But God brought me through it. I am a much better mother, friend, employee, daughter, Christian because of my journey.


"Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don't try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way."
James 1:2-4 The Message

Whew, it's Friday

Well, my first week of work was FABULOUS! On my second day, I conducted an investigation! HA! Everyone was amazed that I was able to complete this task. Why, I do not know? I conducted investigations for several years with my employer in Atlanta so it was like riding a bike. Once you learn it, you never forget how.

My manager commented that she could tell from my mannerisms that I have experience in this area. Good thing I didn't lie in the interview! HA!

So far, I really like the job and the people. Unfortunately, I do not like the team I am assigned to as they are sort of stand-offish. My telephone hasn't been installed yet and one of the programs I need has to be installed by IT. But other than that, my week has been very good. The best part: my computer is chained to my desk so I will never bring work home!

I am tired of school. I always get like this near the end of the quarter. Plus, these last two classes are areas that do not interest me. Nor do I understand 1/2 of the assignments. I really do not care about the grades. I just want to be done.

Well, I have to hit the books to complete this week's assignments. Please continue to pray for me as I have three weeks of school remaining beginning Monday. I CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!

My First Day

I reported for work this morning and it was a very good day. Everyone is so nice and friendly. They even appear to enjoy their jobs.

I was very comfortable today. I did not have those awkward first day moments. The environment is so neat and clean. My desk is very comfortable and every one in the office as a view from his/her desk. The company designed the buiding and interior layout to provide a gorgeous view no matter where the desk is located. This is the view from my desk:



I do not like the work hours of 8-5p. I am assigned to the region covering the midwest, south and north east. Therefore, I have to work until 5p to accomodate for the time difference. I was driving like a mad woman trying to get to the daycare before 6p. I really do not want to switch the kids to another facility as they are very comfortable there. I will try to find an alternate route to get there in about 30 minutes.

All in all, it was a great first day. Also, everything is online. The company seems to work hard at maintaining a level of excellence to ensure things function as they ought.

Nana Ida Comes to Town

NyCee and Tyler enjoyed a visit from Nana Ida. She came to town on Saturday night and will be leaving tomorrow. She had an opportunity to visit our church and just relax. (Which is something she really needed to do.)

Unfortunately, we were unable to do much because I had to work this weekend and have to work tomorrow-YAY! But we just enjoyed each other's company. I think she enjoyed the 80 degree weather more than anything seeing as how it is snowing in Michigan.

Next time she visits, we will not have so much going on at one time and she will be able to do more sight seeing.

Nursery Rhyme Shuffle

While in the bathtub, NyCee began singing various nursery rhymes. The only problem is that she combined several verses into one song. For example:

"Old McDonald had a farm. E I E I O. And down came the rain and washed the spider out."

"Ring around the rosey, shake it all about. Left foot out. Hokey turn yourself around."

"A B C D E F G. H I J K what you are? Up above the world so high for the bible tells me so. Little ones to Him belong, they are weak but He is strong."

At the end of her concert, she said, "Mommy, Ta-Dah! Good Stuff!"

On Pins and Needles....

Okay, so I am still waiting for a response regarding my interview for the Employee Relations Consultant position. Here's the latest update:

I have received two calls from the company conducting the background check. The first call was for my birth date. The second call was for a fax of my degree. Then on Friday, a representative from the company called and advised that I am a candidate for the position they are waiting for my background check to clear. She also needed additional information about my former employer.

As I was typing this entry, the phone rang and she offered me the job with the salary higher than what I expected. GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME!!!!!!!

"God can do anything, you know—far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us." Ephesians 3:20 The Message

Take it by force

In an effort to wean Tyler off of breast milk, I only allow him to nurse at night. Even on the weekends when we are at home. However, I guess he does not like that idea. He was on my lap playing when he grabbed my shirt with enough force to lift himself up and attempted to begin nursing through my shirt!

He is a strong little boy!

A Ghetto Moment

You know you are having a ghetto moment when you put your child in the bathtub in preparation for bedtime, look in the dresser drawer to retrieve a pair of underwear only to discover that none are clean.

While you had the good sense to start the load of laundry containing the underwear earlier that evening, you did not account for drying time. Therefore, you used the hair blow dryer to dry a pair panties so that your 2 year old daughter will not go to bed commando. Definitely a ghetto moment.

As a side thought, wouldn't the phrase, "A pair of panties" be an oxymoron? I mean technically, the letter "a" is singluar and "pair" is plural. Therefore, "a pair of panties" is an oxymoron.

:~P (Sticking out my tongue)

Today's Oxymoron

The state of Arizona requires that all school buses be equipped with a heating system. But air conditioning is optional.

Really?!?!?!?!?

Picasso

My pastor has been teaching a series titled, "Does the Mind Matter?" This picture of NyCee is a perfect example of the context of the message. He teaches that if you are predominantly left-brained, then you should exercise the right-brain and vice versa.

NyCee is obviously tapping into her creative side (right-brain) by building a sculpture of Cheetos on top of a peanut butter sandwich.

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions

The interview process for the Employee Relations Consultant position is complete. Initially, I didn't think that I wanted the position because I was content to work two jobs for now. Even though I will still work the part-time job at my church on Saturday nights, I really want the position. It is an opportunity to develop my knowledge and exercise my decision making abilities while advancing my career.

The panel interview consisted of three (3) individuals currently serving in different roles in the company but each began their careers in the role for which I applied. Next was a writing sample issuing a disciplinary letter for an individual whose attendance record continued to decline. (In theory, this should have been a breeze but it has been over two years (2) since I have actually written one of these letters. I had to pull the information out of my subconscious!) Finally, I met with the director. She was a very nice lady. A little spacey. She reminded me of my former VP. She advised that background checks must be completed before an offer of employment is presented as the company does not extend offers contingent on the clearance of background checks. Collectively, the initial phone interview, the first-face-to-face with the two Employee Relations Managers (one of whom left the room during the interview and returned when it ended), the panel interview, and the interview with the director, will determine if an offer is extended.

That about sums up my afternoon yesterday. Additionally, I scheduled an interview for Monday with a different company but after much thought, I have decided to cancel the meeting. The company is over 40 minutes away, one way. Further, the position does not offer any growth opportunity.

So, here I am again: waiting..............................

The Lord is my Shepard. I shall not want. Psalm 23: 1

Rounds 3 and 4

I received a call today to continue in the interview process for the Employee Relations Consultant position.

Tomorrow, I will interview with a panel and then move on to meet the director.

"If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him."
James 1:5 NKJV

Again, I wait...

Well, I had my interview today for the Employee Relations Consultant position. I think that it went well. I was much more relaxed and the questions were straight forward rather than behaviorial based. There was one scenrio that I had to read and give my opinion of how I would handle the situation.

The environment was warm and inviting and I actually felt comfortable while waiting. The office is about 20 minutes from my house but I can take the surface streets to avoid traffic. The downside is the hours are 8a-5p Monday thru Friday. I would rather work 7a-4p so that I can have a little more time in the evenings. But that is a minor issue.

While in that interview, I received a voice mail message about another position. When I spoke with the manager of that company later that afternoon, he scheduled an interview with me for Thursday (which I will be re-scheduling due to a conflict.) It is reassuring to know that God has this all under control. I am blessed with two really great part-time jobs that do not conflict with one another nor do they tire me out. I would really like to get the job I interviewed for today. I could see myself working there. That company will help me fill in the gaps in my resume which will lead to my director or vp position.

But for now, once again, I wait...............


13 [What, what would have become of me] had I not believed that I would see the Lord's goodness in the land of the living!

14 Wait and hope for and expect the Lord; be brave and of good courage and let your heart be stout and enduring. Yes, wait for and hope for and expect the Lord.
Psalm 27:13-14

Preparation

Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight or understanding.
Proverbs 3:5

My interview for the Employee Relations Consultant position is tomorrow at 2:00pm. Unlike my interview with Target, I have not prepared at all. I have not spent hours researching the company or various types of interviewing techniques. In fact, the only preparation has been prayer and deciding what suit to wear. Because I have relied on God for to meet EVERY need, I am okay with whatever happens tomorrow. I have salary and work hours requirements that must be met. If the company is not willing to meet those two conditions, then I will continue to wait on the Lord-plain and simple.

On a lighter note, it was a beautiful day Saturday. So I opened the door to the balcony and put the screen door in place. Today, as I prepared to go to the balcony to put a load of clothing in the washing machine, I opened the door and walked right in to the screen door.

Heck of a Week

"If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don't you think he'll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I'm trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God's giving. People who don't know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don't worry about missing out. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. Matthew 6:30-33 The Message

I began my new job on Monday and this has been a long week. As I sit here writing a blog entry, instead of working on my ECON Excel project, I was just thinking about how truly blessed I am.

While grocery shopping alone (the kids were at daycare) and singing and dancing up and down the aisles, I received a call to schedule a face-to-face interview next week for a position as an Employee Relations Consultant with a fairly prominent company here in the Valley of the Sun. Lately, I have had more calls about jobs "than a little bit" (that is phrase I learned from my cousin while living in Atlanta.- HA!) But why have the interviews starting pouring in? Because I followed Jesus' advice in Matthew 6:33. I stopped seeking for a job and started seeking after Him. All my needs and wants are met.

The kids have adjusted to their daycare very well. I knew that NyCee would be okay but Tyler took a couple of days to grow accustom to the new arrangement. But working this week has afforded me the opportunity to really stop and think about a full-time job. Right now, I get off at 2:00p and by the time I pick up the kids, get home, cook dinner, read stories, give baths, and goodnight kisses at 7:30p, I am pooped. My job is only 10 minutes away and the kids daycare is down the street from my job (about 5-6 mins). After all of that, I have to sit down at my computer and attempt to complete my school assignments before 10:00p so that I can shower and get some sleep. So now, I am trying to figure out if a full-time job is worth all of that right now.

So that was the "WAHOO" part of my week. The "boy that sucks" part is that I failed one part of my CDL exam so I have to return to the MVD (Motor Vehicle Division) next Friday and retake it. It was a four part exam and I failed the one part by one question. ALWAYS GO WITH YOUR FIRST THOUGHT! But it's okay. I will zip thru it next time.

Back to the excel project.....


But when He, the Spirit of Truth (the Truth-giving Spirit) comes, He will guide you into all the Truth (the whole, full Truth). For He will not speak His own message [on His own authority]; but He will tell whatever He hears [from the Father; He will give the message that has been given to Him], and He will announce and declare to you the things that are to come [that will happen in the future]. John 16:13 Amplified Bible

Faith Walk

Moving to Phoenix, this time around, was truly a walk of faith. I knew in my heart that moving was the right thing to do. It just took a WHOLE LOTTA faith to actually do it seeing as how I didn't have job, no job prospects (other than substitute teaching which I really did NOT want to do), no interviews lined up-nothing. I packed up my kids and moved on faith.

Now, some people thought that I was being "Flighty Dayna" and just flying by the seat of my pants. I promise, that this time, I put a lot of thought and prayer into this decision.

Since moving, I have had seven, yes, seven job interviews. Two of which came this week. Now, given the current state of the economy, I consider that a true blessing from God. When I didn't get the job two weeks ago, I was bummed out because I thought that I "needed" a full time job to take care of me and my children. Wrong! What I needed to do was stretch my faith and remember that God feeds the birds surely He will take care of us (Matthew 6:26-31).

I have received blessing after blessing. All my bills are paid in full and on time. Remember, I just started working on 09/18 and 10/20 respectively.Financial blessings have come to me to meet that need. Yesterday, I received a call about a full time position and had a phone interview. I am not really interested in the position but I do not pass up opportunities to brush up on my interviewing skills. Today, while in training, my phone rang and it was another company calling to conduct a phone interview. Again, I am not interested in the position but will seize the opportunity for a face-to-face interview if one is offered.

I am not interested because my current situation works very well for me. I work one part-time job Monday-Friday (2 hours in the morning and 2 hours in the afternoon) and my other part-time job on Saturday nights. The kids are in daycare all day and I have time to complete my schoolwork during my down time. This opens up my evenings for rest and time with the kids. Actual quality time with them. And if by the time I complete my doctoral program, NyCee will be in Kindergarten thereby reducing my daycare cost.

One of the pastors at my church teaches, "Short term pain reaps long term rewards." What am I saying? It would be better for me to stay at my part-time job (for which I am receiving state retirement points and matching 401k benefits) and complete my doctoral program rather than take a full-time job for $40k and drive myself mad trying to be superwoman. Yes, in the short term, I will be on a strict budget. But the long term reward is worth it!

I just think about how awesome God is to have even opened the doors of employment opportunities. It just reminds me that He has everything under control. But I had to do my part which was act on my faith.

The Flutist

For the past several days, NyCee has been walking around the house playing her "flute." Which of course are highlighters clipped together. What amazed me is: 1. she actually knows the colors of each highlighter. She said, "Look Mommy. Pink, orange, yellow. I play the flute." And then she starts to hum a little tune. The second thing is that she is recalling an episode of Dora the Explorer. She can nearly replay the entire episode out loud. The little tune that she hums is what Dora hummed while playing her flute.

NyCee even uses Spanish words, in the correct context, on several occasions. That little girl is so smart. I was thinking that next year I will get her involved in some sort of activity. Either playing an instrument or sports. I think I want to get her involved in swimming or gymnastics.

Fabulous

A couple of weeks ago, I had a conversation with my mother in which I told her that I have lost a lot of weight. So much weight, that all my brand new suits are too big. I had four pairs of the pants altered but they are still too big and the jackets look sloppy. So I will be giving them away to someone. I don't know who but I am sure someone can use them.

Anyway, my mother asked me what size am I currently wearing. I replied, "A 4." She exclaimed, "A 4? Are you eating? Do you have money for food? Why didn't you call if you didn't have money to buy food?" I laughed and told her that we are eating. We eat three meals a day plus two snacks. I have been small all of my life with the exception of after NyCee was born. (I think that was because I went through a phase of depression due to all the drama in my life at that time.)

Even though my world was a bit chaotic during my pregnancy and after Tyler was born, I exercised everyday and ate fairly healthy while pregnant with him. So today, I like how I look. I love my life and quite frankly--I look absolutely FABULOUS as a size 4. So mommy, this picture is for you:

"Look at what I can do at 6 months old."

"It's been six months since I entered the world and already, I try to have tantrums by stiffing my body and screaming until mommy comes into the room. (Notice I said try because usually mommy ignores me and doesn't respond until I act like I have some sense.) I play with my toes, fingers, and oh yeah, some thing between my legs that I haven't figured out how to work yet. I pull my sister's hair and try to eat it. I have learned how to roll on my stomach but then I have to stay like that until mommy comes to help me.

Today, mommy took my sister and me to a place named Childtime where we will go on Monday because my mommy starts her new job. I will like it there I am sure. So far, my life is good. I was born in Michigan, visited Georgia, and now I am home in Arizona. Life is fabulous and getting better each day."

Tip-Toe, Tip-Toe, Tip-Toe

When Tyler woke up early Saturday morning, around 6:00a or so, I walked into the room to get him. In the process, I noticed that NyCee was in "her" spot in my bed. I do not even remember her coming into my room. Normally, she yells my name at the top of her lungs and then climbs into my bed.



But the kids are making progress with respect to sleeping all night in their own beds. When NyCee wakes up, depending on what time it is, I put her back in her bed. Last night, she slept in her bed all night. She walked into my room this morning and exclaimed, "Mommy. I wake up" as she stretched her arms in the air. As we were walking out the bedroom, she turned around and said, "Mommy, Shhh (with her finger on her lips). Buddy is sleeping. We tip-toe, tip-toe (as she walked on her tip-toes out of the room).

This is the day the LORD has made; we will rejoice and be glad in it. (Psalm 118:24)

Valley Visitors

My friends Dacia and Stephanie surprised me with a visit today. When I was in Atlanta, I was unable to see Dacia due to schedule conflicts. Therefore, it was so good to see her.

We just caught up and enjoyed each other's company. We swapped baby delivery stories and other "unimportant" life events. They both told me that the "Valley of the Sun" really agrees with me. While walking around the mall, I snapped this photo of NyCee. I don't even have words to type. Those little legs crossed are too much for me.

Now, I just have to get my other friend Allie, along with her children Mallie and Max out here. And my friend in Chicago. Maybe now that the weather is cooling off, they will take a trip out here.

Dacia and Stephanie also helped me figure out all the features of the stroller that I purchased for the kids. I didn't realize that Tyler's car seat was not supposed to be placed on the stroller itself. Once I removed the car seat and just strapped him in, it was so much lighter and easier to manuver. Also, both seats recline! Who knew? Yes, I know: I had another infamous "Little Red Stick" moment.

The Blob

NyCee wanted some cookies so I thought I would try my hand at making a batch. How hard could it be, right? I opened the package, added the egg and the butter, mixed until smooth and used two teaspoons to place it on the cookie sheet like Sandra Lee taught me. But Sandra's cookies do not turn out like this:



I will just stick to either Vaniila Wafers or the cookies that you just place on the cookie sheet and bake.

My Cup is Full

The LORD is my Shepherd [to feed, guide, and shield me], I shall not lack.
He makes me lie down in [fresh, tender] green pastures; He leads me beside the still and restful waters.

He refreshes and restores my life (my self); He leads me in the paths of righteousness [uprightness and right standing with Him--not for my earning it, but] for His name's sake.

Yes, though I walk through the [deep, sunless] valley of the shadow of death, I will fear or dread no evil, for You are with me; Your rod [to protect] and Your staff [to guide], they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my [brimming] cup runs over.

Surely or only goodness, mercy, and unfailing love shall follow me all the days of my life, and through the length of my days the house of the Lord [and His presence] shall be my dwelling place.
Psalm 23 (Amplified Bible)

After spending nearly 30 plus hours thinking of myself as a failure, I decided that was enough. Now that the funk cloud of failure has lifted, I can clearly see that I really didn't want the job with company #1. It just didn't feel right. Neither did company #2. What I wanted was the stability of a consistent paycheck. Well, I have that.

The part time job that I will start on 10/20 will actually work very well for me. Because I still have two classes to complete my MBA, I will be able to work on my school assignments during my down time. The kids will be at daycare and that will free up my evenings to spend some time with them before bedtime. So it truly is all in how you look at it.

I wasted all those hours recapping every failure in my life. Well, what good did that do? What snapped me back to reality was the vision of Jesus on the cross. He looked defeated also but He knew the end of the story. Oftentimes He stated, “Destroy this temple, and in three days I will raise it up.” Then the Jews said, “It has taken forty-six years to build this temple, and will You raise it up in three days?” But He was speaking of the temple of His body" (John 2:19-21).

Jesus also told me, "In this godless world you will continue to experience difficulties. But take heart! I've conquered the world" (John 16:33, The Message). Walking around with my head hung down about a job that I didn't really want is ridiculous. So like Sandra Lee says, "I am going to put on a pretty little party dress" and be of good cheer.

I am reading a book titled, "Battlefield of the Mind" by Joyce Meyer and it is so good. I suggest everyone read it because how you see yourself in your mind really does control your actions and behaviors. "For as a man thinks in his heart, so his he" (Proverbs 23:7a) If I allowed my mind to replay failures, then a failure I would be. However, I "Do [not] fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.

Summing it all up, friends, I'd say you'll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse. Put into practice what you learned from me, what you heard and saw and realized. Do that, and God, who makes everything work together, will work you into his most excellent harmonies" (Phillipans 4:7-9 The Message).

Besides, who could stay in a depressed funk with this kid around.

The Wait Is Over

I didn't get either position that I interviewed for on Friday. I knew that when I left each company on Friday but it doesn't make it any less disappointing.

I will just have to work two jobs to take care of the kids. It just feels like I can not get a break. But God said,

"Before I shaped you in the womb,
I knew all about you.
Before you saw the light of day,
I had holy plans for you:
Jeremiah 1:5

I want to cry. I want to scream. I want to give up. But I can not bring myself to do any of those things. My kids didn't ask to be here so I have to keep moving forward for them. Sadly, people would rather see me fail; rather than to encourage me. I think that is what hurts the most.

Bold

Let us then fearlessly and confidently and boldly draw near to the throne of grace (the throne of God's unmerited favor to us sinners), that we may receive mercy [for our failures] and find grace to help in good time for every need [appropriate help and well-timed help, coming just when we need it] (Hebrews 4:16).

Last night while I was getting ready for bed, I heard NyCee shuffle out of her bed and tip-toe into my room. She looked at me and climbed into my bed, getting into "her" spot, curled right up, and went to sleep. The entire scenario lasted about 5 mins but it was so profound to me because that is what God expects for us to do. NyCee knew that she could crawl into my bed and find comfort and peace to rest. So we ought to know that we can boldly approach God's throne for help to endure every situation in life.

My morning started at 300a with a text message with some rather unsettling news. It was not unto death, meaning no one died or anything. But it was just something that I didn't need added to my plate. Let me back up.

God has really been awesome by opening several doors of employment opportunities. I have a part-time job where I work on Saturdays nights and began that job on 09/18. Wednesday, I received another job offer for an additional part time job that is 4 hours a day 5 days a week with a little higher pay. Today, I had two job interviews. Both were openings by God. For the first company, I received an email from the recruiter who was trying to contact me but because I changed my cell number. Therefore, she sent me an email. My cousin put me in touch with her neighbor who has worked for the company for 18 years and she provided me with some insight and spoke very highly of the company. Then on Monday, I received an email from the second company I interviewed with today, stating that there was an opening for a position they felt I was better suited for versus the one I submitted my resume for. So of course, I was so excited at the blessings God granted me.

Now, think about it. Some people are trying to find one job and I have 4 job opportunities. That is awesome! But today, the news I received at 300a was only the beginning. I went to the interview at Company #1 and was subjected to three rounds of interviews with 2 interviewers in each session. The problem: the facility is 35 minutes away from my house and is open 24/7 which means I could be required to report to work at various times on various days. Obviously that would not work for me as a single mother.

When I arrived at Company #2, the recruiter advised me that just this morning, the requirements for the position had changed and while I was a strong candidate, I no longer fit the criteria that the hiring manager is looking for. Nonetheless, I still met with the hiring manager and he was honest and told me that I meet the requirements 80% but he needs someone with the other 20%. However, he will keep my resume in the "mix" for consideration.

So now, I have a choice. I can either continue to believe that God opened these doors for a reason and because He is Omnipotent, He knew the work hours of Company 1 and the requirements of Company 2. Or I can be like the Israelites who God delivered out of Egypt, provided all needs while traveling to the Promised Land, confirmed that the Promised Land was in fact what God said, "We went to the land to which you sent us and, oh! It does flow with milk and honey! Just look at this fruit! (Numbers 13:27), but never entered the Promise Land because of doubt and unbelief. Isn't it safe to assume that God knew there were giants in the Promised Land when He told Moses, "Send men to scout out the country of Canaan that I am GIVING to the People of Israel?" (Numbers 13:1). So it is safe to assume that God was well aware of the giants that I faced today, right?

Last night, I didn't fully understand what God was showing me. Today, I do. I have to stand boldly on His word and His promises in order to enter my Promised Land.

Too Much Time There

You know you spend too much time in one place when your two year old asks, "Mommy, we go to Wal-Mart" when you pull in the parking lot.