2008: An Amazing Year!

Wow! What can I say about 2008? For me, it was a year of great growth.

Tyler was added to my family.

A MBA was added to my list of degrees.

A new job was added to my life.

A new home in the city I want to live in.

A WONDERFUL new church where I am growing spiritual.

I think back on the year and it's all positive. The "up" moments definitely out weigh the "down" times.

All day, I have had a great sense of joy and excitement. I just know that even better things are coming in 2009. Dreams becoming realities. Prayers being answered. Exponential growth in my career.

2009 will be absoulutely FABULOUS! I encourage you to take some time to reflect on all the blessings that God has bestowed on your life. Everything may not have followed your exact plan, but trust and believe in God's plan for your life.

So as we wait for the bells to ring and confetti to fall, lift your hands and voices to the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords and thank Him for His goodness and mercy which have brought you this far.

Hallelujah! Praise God in his holy house of worship,
praise him under the open skies;
Praise him for his acts of power,
praise him for his magnificent greatness;
Praise with a blast on the trumpet,
praise by strumming soft strings;
Praise him with castanets and dance,
praise him with banjo and flute;
Praise him with cymbals and a big bass drum,
praise him with fiddles and mandolin.
Let every living, breathing creature praise God!
Hallelujah!

Psalm 150 (The Message)

Photo with Santa

Instead of taking NyCee and Tyler to the mall for a picture with Santa, I was able to take them to my job. It was a very nice event because only the children of HR employees were allowed in the event.

Prior to talking to Santa, NyCee attempted to have a tantrum because she was told to "wait her turn." Well, she didn't take that news kindly and that resulted in a trip to the bathroom. (I am sure you can deduce what happened next.)

Once we returned to the room, NyCee was on her best behavior. Co-worker commented about how cute she was and well-behaved. She grew more and more excited as "her turn" to see Santa approached.

Finally the big moment arrived.

"Mommy, Santa! Santa."

"Yes, pumpkin cake. It is Santa. Say Hi."




After all of that, she sat on Santa's lap and cried her head off. Go figure!

(Sorry the pictures are so small. I haven't quite figured out all the bells and whistles of my scanner. Heck, I just figured out how to scan the picture.)

The Best Christmas Ever!...So Far....

This morning around 1:30a NyCee came into my room holding a box of crayons. (As a child, my parents used to leave the Christmas tree illuminated. I did the same thing so I am sure it drew NyCee's attention. I did not get her initial reaction as I was sound asleep.) But once in my room,

She said, "Mommy, look."

I replied, "What's that baby?"

"Come here. Come see, Mommy." As she proceeded into the living room.

When I followed behind her, she said, "Ta-dah! Christmas."

She began to jump up and down saying, "Dora. Dora." So we sat down and opened a few of the gifts and I let her play for about 30 or 40 minutes. Then, we went back to bed. I had to let her sleep in my bed with her new Dora pillow as a bribe to get some sleep.



Almost simultaneously, NyCee tapped me on the head asking if she could play while Tarisa was sending a text message asking if we were awake. The time was around 715a. I managed to get myself out of the bed, wash my face, brush my teeth and lead NyCee to the living room. Tyler was still sleeping soundly. (He woke up around 530a but I quickly changed his diaper and gave him a bottle so that he would go back to sleep.)


Around 800a, both kids were up and playing. Although NyCee played with Tyler's toys, she brought them over to him saying, "Here buddy. Play with this one."

By 1130a, she was pooped. So, I laid her down for a nap as we were invited over to Lorie and Dan's (a couple from my church) for dinner. Lorie and Dan have agreed to serve as a mentor family for NyCee and Tyler. To me, it is important they see a Christian family unit. In turn, I will serve as a mentor to their 12 year old daughter Kayla.

We enjoyed dinner at Lorie's and then returned home around 630p. I was even blessed with several gifts from friends who were single moms in the past and wanted me to have gifts to open today as well. I am constantly amazed at how God shows his love for me.

Our night ended with Tyler pooping all up his back and on the bed sheets--sweet! But thankfully, it was before his bath. Then, I popped a big bowl of popcorn and the kids and I watched a Care Bear Movie NyCee received as a Christmas gift.

It was cold and rainy here today. (Temps in the low 50s) But it was truly the best Christmas Ever--so far.

The Sky is the Limit

While sitting here preparing to be Santa Claus, I was thinking about how far I have come in just one year. But as I deleted the link for my school from my favorites section, I thought of my parents.


My father completed his Master's degree about 3 or 4 years ago. I believe he started this drive for education in my family. While it took him, literally 20 years, to complete his undergraduate studies, he completed it nonetheless. Given the fact that he had a family to support, he could not just attend school on a regular basis. Somehow, my mother always "found" the money to aid in his educational pursuit and now today, he is living off the harvest of his investment.

My mother decided to return to school when Tarisa was about 16 years old. She realized that in two years she would no longer be just a mom and decided to pursue a career. She graduated from Wayne County Community College with a 4.0 gpa which earned her a presidential scholarship to complete her undergraduate work. Few people know that was the second full scholarship my mother received from Wayne State University. But because of Talisha's illness, she was unable to take advantage of the opportunity the first time. But when we are faithful to God, He always restores the sacrifices we make. This past summer, my mother completed her Master's degree and is now working on her Education Specialist degree which will propel her into the administrative aspect of education.

In June 2006, I began working on my undergraduate degree-again. I completed 1/2 of the program when I lived in Chicago, IL. But I needed 90 credits to finish the degree. My undergraduate degree was conferred in September 2007. As of Monday, December 22, 2008, all final grades have been posted and I will receive my Master of Business Administration Degree in Human Resources Management. Again, I completed the degree in 15 months. My final g.p.a is a 3.8. Initially, I was slightly disappointed with the "B" but I am not defined by my grades. And given all that I have endured over the past year, I am pretty darn proud of myself! Praise God for His strength and joy which helped me to stay the course with my eyes on Him.



Tarisa completed her Associate of Arts degree in San Francisco, CA and is now in school to complete her Bachelor's degree.

Boonie has completed several certification courses over that past few years and holds various certificates. Recently, she has enrolled in a cosmetology program to upgrade her certifications.

Since completing my degrees, I have truly come to understand that ABSOLUTELY ANY THING is possible. If I can think it, with God, I can achieve it!

Jesus said to him, “If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes.”
Mark 9:23 (New King James Version)

"Merry Christmas Lights"

NyCee saw the dentist today and am I pleased to report she did not damage her permanent teeth or nerves. Praise God!


Every day on the drive home, NyCee exclaims, "Mommy, Merry Christmas Lights!" I have attempted to explain the difference but then she just responds with "Why?" I am not sure when this "why" phase began but it needs to come to an abrupt halt.

Monday Madness

I must re-iterate to my children the importance of not participating in sickness and drama. Last Monday, I had to leave work because Tyler had a fever of 102 degrees. After waiting at the doctor's office for 2 hours, which we never do, she prescribed Amoxicillin for a "slight" ear infection. He is much better.

Today, I had to leave work to take him to see the surgeon. The surgeon is very nice and that visit lasted less than 1 hour. His surgery will be scheduled after the New Year.

Okay, he is situated.



NyCee was able to go to daycare today. She spent most of the time showing off the injury rather than feeling the effects of it. She has an appointment with the dentist in the morning.

I could literally sleep for a week as I am so tired. Thankfully, her appointment is at 940a so we can sleep in for an extra hour or so in the morning.

Sunday Smackdown

Well, this morning we got up and got dressed for church. Ate breakfast and out the door--no problems there.

We arrived at church and both kids were checked into King's Castle.--No problem there.

I proceeded to the sanctuary, grabbed a seat and waited for praise and worship to begin--no problems there.

I enjoyed praise and worship and just as the offering receptacles were passing by, I received a text message to report to King's Castle--problem there.

I reported to NyCee's room and learned she had fallen and busted her lip. But one of my weekend co-workers told me, "her tooth is pushed back." And sure enough.

My co-worker told me NyCee didn't cry but she (the co-worker) noticed NyCee holding the ice to her tooth versus her lip.

So, I left Tyler at church and went one block up the road to the Urgent Care Center. NyCee is fine and the tooth is not loose. But I have to find a pediatric dentist to ensure the root was not damaged.

Looking at the positive side: It is a baby tooth and would have fallen out anyway. So she will not have any damage to her permanent teeth or smile.

And, Christmas photos where already taken.

Up He Sits

Tyler has been practing sitting up. While he is still cannot lift himself to the sitting position, he has grown fond of being upright. Usually, I just put him on the floor on a blanket and let him play. Lately, he has been rolling all over the place. For example, last night, I placed him on the blanket while I decorated the Christmas Tree. When I turned around, he was nearly under the tree!

NyCee seems to like the fact that he can sit up as well. She enjoys plays with him and often invites him to watch Dora or Blue's Clues with her. The picture below lacks sharpness and precision. (I need a new camera. The one I have is cheap so pictures rarely turn out nice. But it was free-so I do not complain.)But, I tried to capture this kiss to freeze the moment in time.

Step 1

Saturday, I took the night off from my weekend job to grocery shop and pick up the kids' Christmas items. Everything went very smoothly and I did not wait in any long lines.

I found a Christmas tree at Kmart for $40. So last night after church, I put the kids to bed and put the tree together. I thought it would be a nice surprise for NyCee when she woke up this morning. And it was. (Side thought: She was in my room yesterday looking for her house slippers and discovered her Dora table and chairs set under my bed. She bounced up and exclaimed, "Mommy, Dora. Dora. Can I play with Dora?" Of course, I had to play it off as if I didn't know what she was talking about. Thankfully, she has forgotten about it.)

Anyway, returning to the story. NyCee has made a couple of Christmas Tree ornaments at church and has been asking to put them on the tree for days. So I told her we would decorate the tree when she came home from "school." I even remembered to call my father this morning and ask how to put the lights on the tree.

We arrived home and sat down to dinner. Before receiving her after dinner treat, NyCee decided she would have a tantrum. As the consequence for that decision, she did not recieve her treat and we were unable to decorate the tree as I will not reward or tolerate bad behavior. So, we will try to get the tree decorated on Thursday. I managed to complete the first two tasks: out of the box and assembled.




I think it a really cute tree for $40. It's nice and full. You can not see the stick in the middle. I am sure it will be fabulous when it's decorated.

A Simple Prayer Answered

Today, a new guy started at work whose name is Greg. He secured the position due to a vacancy which resulted from a resignation. From a simple resignation, many prayers were answered.

Unbeknownst to each of us, Greg and I interviewed for the position that I have at the same time. Of course, I was selected for the initial opening. Since my arrival, three (3) openings have become available.

I did not like working 8-5p. Today, my manager offered me the 730a-430p time slot. Of course, I jumped at it. So my prayer was answered. Yes, it is only a 30 minute time difference but that 30 minutes makes a BIG difference.

Due to the vacancy, Greg was offered the position that he really wanted but was offered to me. Both prayers were answered. I work an earlier shift and Greg got the position he really wanted. God's timing is impeccable.

I am constantly amazed by God. He always takes care of everything.

"Aren't five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten in God's sight. Indeed, the hairs of your head are all counted. Don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows!"

Luke 12:6-7(Holman Christian Standard Bible)

A Full Week Completed

This was my first FULL week of working full-time. I started the job on a Tuesday and my second week was Thanksgiving week. Wednesday the schedule caught up with my body. I sat down on the couch for a moment to try and get some energy and woke up to the sound of my phone alerting.

I told myself that I would lay down for about 2 hours to re-charge and then wake up to complete my schoolwork. When I woke up it was 500a--time to rise and shine. So needless to say, I was pretty pooped.

Work is progressing well. I really like the job. The atmosphere is very comfortable and my VP even commented that I fit right in as if I had been there all the time. I think the way cases are processed is a little odd but hey, I just go with it. For example, when I conclude an investigation, I have to get VP approval before I can issue discipline. That is strange to me. Discharge, yes. Discipline, I should have the authority to execute. But again, whatever!

I have been working for 12 days and have managed to close 4 cases, administer one discharge, process 3 written warnings and 1 termination warning. WOW! It's like riding a bicycle. Once you learn, you never forget how to do it.

As for the kids, NyCee is talking more and more everyday. She is a funny little girl with the comments she makes. She has learned a new phrase, "Good stuff Mommy!" (I wonder where she picked up that statement.-HA!)



Tyler is getting big and finally sleeping in his own bed all night. When he goes to sleep at 730p, he is in his bed. But when he wakes up around 1230p or so, I would just put him in the bed with me so that I could go back to sleep. BAD! BAD! I know but hey, I am doing the best I can.

The pile of laundry was finally ironed and put away. Of course, a new pile is in it's place. Only 2 weeks of school remaining. Of course, my Internet has been hit or miss this week. I am so far behind on my school work this week because I can't log into class. The work will be completed, the final grades posted, and my degree conferred. So, as I like to say, "no worries."

15 days and counting....

There are 15 days remaining until I am finish with my graduate program. And I am really counting the days. I am so tired of school work! Good Gravy! But I can see the finish line ahead.

My Internet services sucks and works when it wants to. Thus, it is making it challenging for me to complete my final two projects. One professor granted an extension. I have not received a response from the other yet.

You know what? I will complete all that I can by Friday for submission. I can not stress myself out over it.

I constantly pray for strength. Working two jobs, completing two classes, raising two children alone is no joke! But God gives me the grace to run my race and thankfully He holds everything together for me.

The blog postings will be few over the next couple of weeks as I try to focus my energy on completing school. Hang in there with me.

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
Phillipians 4:13

Date Night

I called my grandparents in Alabama on Thanksgiving to check on them and extend Thanksgiving day greetings. At one point in the conversation, my granddad asked if I had anyone special in my life yet. I replied, "No, sir. Legally and morally, Lewis and I are still married even though we have been separated over a year." My grandfather was thinking about NyCee and Tyler and does not want a lot of men around them. I reassured him that was NOT an option. I will not parade different men in and out of my children's lives.

But it started me thinking about an actual date. If in fact I were to go on a date what would I do? I have an idea! I would invite him over to help me wash, dry, iron and fold the pile of laundry that just keeps growing!


The clothes on the chair are clean. The clothes on the couch are clean and in three piles. Each pile represents me, NyCee and Tyler. The pile of clothes on the floor has yet to make it to the washing machine. Oh, did I mention the clothes on the couch are from last week's laundry day?Now, if I could just find the time to iron and fold them, I would be happy has a little lark.

So my idea of a date night: dinner and laundry. Heck, I am willing to forego dinner if he would just help with the laundry.

God's Promise

As I exited the parking lot this evening after work, I saw this rainbow in the sky. Immediately, I began to think of all the promises God has made to His children. Those promises are made available through the blood of Jesus Christ.

How appropriate for the rainbow to appear the day before Thanksgiving? It reminded me of all the things for which I am thankful and that God never forgets His promises. Tomorrow can always better than today if you expect it to be.


"For all the promises of God in Him are Yes, and in Him Amen, to the glory of God through us."

2 Cor 1:20

Pearly Whites

Tyler's bottom two teeth have finally broken through. I was amazed when I noticed his teeth coming in so soon. His doctor stated that 6 months is the average age when babies start teething. NyCee didn't get teeth until she was close to 9 months old, I think.

Anyway, like his sister, he attempted to bite me one time while nursing. I think all babies try it. But like I stated, it was one time and he has not tried it again.

He loves to show off his little teeth by smiling and cooing. When he smiles, you can really see his dimples.

Progressive Blessings

Well, today marks my second week of working full-time. As I was thinking about my journey these past few months, I realized that a progression of blessings occurred every 30 days since moving back to Phoenix.

08/18: Moved to Phoenix,

09/18: Starting working my week end part-time job,

10/20: Began training as a school bus driver,

11/18: Began working full-time job,

12/18: I will have a Master of Business Administration Degree.

Isn't that awesome? I have truly come to believe that it is all in how you perceive a situation. For example: the news reported the unemployment rate is up to 6%. Now initially, that appears to be unpleasant news. However, considering that is taking into account the entire country, that means 94% of the population is gainfully employed or sustaining themselves.

I used that example because your perception will shape your reality.

Last year this time I didn't know which way was up. My husband and I separated, I learned I was pregnant with Tyler, I had to live with my parents (in the frozen tundra of Michigan) and collect state assistance, I loss my home, credit, possessions, etc. But today, I do not look at my life through those eyes. Today, I have beautiful healthy children, on the verge of having two college degrees, an opportunity to pursue a PhD, two jobs that I enjoy (when there are people who can not get one job), I live where I want to live, I have a church home that I love, friends, family, a fully furnished home, no debt, a vehicle with no car payment. My God! I am so blessed. And actually I just learned that my employer offers a 75% discount off of tuition for a doctoral program. The problem is that my program is not offered. But I can get another Master's degree, if I so choose, for free!

My heartfelt prayer to God is that my journey will help someone else reach his/her destiny. It was hard some times. But God brought me through it. I am a much better mother, friend, employee, daughter, Christian because of my journey.


"Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So don't try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way."
James 1:2-4 The Message

Whew, it's Friday

Well, my first week of work was FABULOUS! On my second day, I conducted an investigation! HA! Everyone was amazed that I was able to complete this task. Why, I do not know? I conducted investigations for several years with my employer in Atlanta so it was like riding a bike. Once you learn it, you never forget how.

My manager commented that she could tell from my mannerisms that I have experience in this area. Good thing I didn't lie in the interview! HA!

So far, I really like the job and the people. Unfortunately, I do not like the team I am assigned to as they are sort of stand-offish. My telephone hasn't been installed yet and one of the programs I need has to be installed by IT. But other than that, my week has been very good. The best part: my computer is chained to my desk so I will never bring work home!

I am tired of school. I always get like this near the end of the quarter. Plus, these last two classes are areas that do not interest me. Nor do I understand 1/2 of the assignments. I really do not care about the grades. I just want to be done.

Well, I have to hit the books to complete this week's assignments. Please continue to pray for me as I have three weeks of school remaining beginning Monday. I CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!

My First Day

I reported for work this morning and it was a very good day. Everyone is so nice and friendly. They even appear to enjoy their jobs.

I was very comfortable today. I did not have those awkward first day moments. The environment is so neat and clean. My desk is very comfortable and every one in the office as a view from his/her desk. The company designed the buiding and interior layout to provide a gorgeous view no matter where the desk is located. This is the view from my desk:



I do not like the work hours of 8-5p. I am assigned to the region covering the midwest, south and north east. Therefore, I have to work until 5p to accomodate for the time difference. I was driving like a mad woman trying to get to the daycare before 6p. I really do not want to switch the kids to another facility as they are very comfortable there. I will try to find an alternate route to get there in about 30 minutes.

All in all, it was a great first day. Also, everything is online. The company seems to work hard at maintaining a level of excellence to ensure things function as they ought.

Nana Ida Comes to Town

NyCee and Tyler enjoyed a visit from Nana Ida. She came to town on Saturday night and will be leaving tomorrow. She had an opportunity to visit our church and just relax. (Which is something she really needed to do.)

Unfortunately, we were unable to do much because I had to work this weekend and have to work tomorrow-YAY! But we just enjoyed each other's company. I think she enjoyed the 80 degree weather more than anything seeing as how it is snowing in Michigan.

Next time she visits, we will not have so much going on at one time and she will be able to do more sight seeing.

Nursery Rhyme Shuffle

While in the bathtub, NyCee began singing various nursery rhymes. The only problem is that she combined several verses into one song. For example:

"Old McDonald had a farm. E I E I O. And down came the rain and washed the spider out."

"Ring around the rosey, shake it all about. Left foot out. Hokey turn yourself around."

"A B C D E F G. H I J K what you are? Up above the world so high for the bible tells me so. Little ones to Him belong, they are weak but He is strong."

At the end of her concert, she said, "Mommy, Ta-Dah! Good Stuff!"

On Pins and Needles....

Okay, so I am still waiting for a response regarding my interview for the Employee Relations Consultant position. Here's the latest update:

I have received two calls from the company conducting the background check. The first call was for my birth date. The second call was for a fax of my degree. Then on Friday, a representative from the company called and advised that I am a candidate for the position they are waiting for my background check to clear. She also needed additional information about my former employer.

As I was typing this entry, the phone rang and she offered me the job with the salary higher than what I expected. GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME!!!!!!!

"God can do anything, you know—far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us." Ephesians 3:20 The Message

Take it by force

In an effort to wean Tyler off of breast milk, I only allow him to nurse at night. Even on the weekends when we are at home. However, I guess he does not like that idea. He was on my lap playing when he grabbed my shirt with enough force to lift himself up and attempted to begin nursing through my shirt!

He is a strong little boy!

A Ghetto Moment

You know you are having a ghetto moment when you put your child in the bathtub in preparation for bedtime, look in the dresser drawer to retrieve a pair of underwear only to discover that none are clean.

While you had the good sense to start the load of laundry containing the underwear earlier that evening, you did not account for drying time. Therefore, you used the hair blow dryer to dry a pair panties so that your 2 year old daughter will not go to bed commando. Definitely a ghetto moment.

As a side thought, wouldn't the phrase, "A pair of panties" be an oxymoron? I mean technically, the letter "a" is singluar and "pair" is plural. Therefore, "a pair of panties" is an oxymoron.

:~P (Sticking out my tongue)

Today's Oxymoron

The state of Arizona requires that all school buses be equipped with a heating system. But air conditioning is optional.

Really?!?!?!?!?

Picasso

My pastor has been teaching a series titled, "Does the Mind Matter?" This picture of NyCee is a perfect example of the context of the message. He teaches that if you are predominantly left-brained, then you should exercise the right-brain and vice versa.

NyCee is obviously tapping into her creative side (right-brain) by building a sculpture of Cheetos on top of a peanut butter sandwich.

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions

The interview process for the Employee Relations Consultant position is complete. Initially, I didn't think that I wanted the position because I was content to work two jobs for now. Even though I will still work the part-time job at my church on Saturday nights, I really want the position. It is an opportunity to develop my knowledge and exercise my decision making abilities while advancing my career.

The panel interview consisted of three (3) individuals currently serving in different roles in the company but each began their careers in the role for which I applied. Next was a writing sample issuing a disciplinary letter for an individual whose attendance record continued to decline. (In theory, this should have been a breeze but it has been over two years (2) since I have actually written one of these letters. I had to pull the information out of my subconscious!) Finally, I met with the director. She was a very nice lady. A little spacey. She reminded me of my former VP. She advised that background checks must be completed before an offer of employment is presented as the company does not extend offers contingent on the clearance of background checks. Collectively, the initial phone interview, the first-face-to-face with the two Employee Relations Managers (one of whom left the room during the interview and returned when it ended), the panel interview, and the interview with the director, will determine if an offer is extended.

That about sums up my afternoon yesterday. Additionally, I scheduled an interview for Monday with a different company but after much thought, I have decided to cancel the meeting. The company is over 40 minutes away, one way. Further, the position does not offer any growth opportunity.

So, here I am again: waiting..............................

The Lord is my Shepard. I shall not want. Psalm 23: 1

Rounds 3 and 4

I received a call today to continue in the interview process for the Employee Relations Consultant position.

Tomorrow, I will interview with a panel and then move on to meet the director.

"If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him."
James 1:5 NKJV

Again, I wait...

Well, I had my interview today for the Employee Relations Consultant position. I think that it went well. I was much more relaxed and the questions were straight forward rather than behaviorial based. There was one scenrio that I had to read and give my opinion of how I would handle the situation.

The environment was warm and inviting and I actually felt comfortable while waiting. The office is about 20 minutes from my house but I can take the surface streets to avoid traffic. The downside is the hours are 8a-5p Monday thru Friday. I would rather work 7a-4p so that I can have a little more time in the evenings. But that is a minor issue.

While in that interview, I received a voice mail message about another position. When I spoke with the manager of that company later that afternoon, he scheduled an interview with me for Thursday (which I will be re-scheduling due to a conflict.) It is reassuring to know that God has this all under control. I am blessed with two really great part-time jobs that do not conflict with one another nor do they tire me out. I would really like to get the job I interviewed for today. I could see myself working there. That company will help me fill in the gaps in my resume which will lead to my director or vp position.

But for now, once again, I wait...............


13 [What, what would have become of me] had I not believed that I would see the Lord's goodness in the land of the living!

14 Wait and hope for and expect the Lord; be brave and of good courage and let your heart be stout and enduring. Yes, wait for and hope for and expect the Lord.
Psalm 27:13-14

Preparation

Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight or understanding.
Proverbs 3:5

My interview for the Employee Relations Consultant position is tomorrow at 2:00pm. Unlike my interview with Target, I have not prepared at all. I have not spent hours researching the company or various types of interviewing techniques. In fact, the only preparation has been prayer and deciding what suit to wear. Because I have relied on God for to meet EVERY need, I am okay with whatever happens tomorrow. I have salary and work hours requirements that must be met. If the company is not willing to meet those two conditions, then I will continue to wait on the Lord-plain and simple.

On a lighter note, it was a beautiful day Saturday. So I opened the door to the balcony and put the screen door in place. Today, as I prepared to go to the balcony to put a load of clothing in the washing machine, I opened the door and walked right in to the screen door.

Heck of a Week

"If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don't you think he'll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I'm trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God's giving. People who don't know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don't worry about missing out. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. Matthew 6:30-33 The Message

I began my new job on Monday and this has been a long week. As I sit here writing a blog entry, instead of working on my ECON Excel project, I was just thinking about how truly blessed I am.

While grocery shopping alone (the kids were at daycare) and singing and dancing up and down the aisles, I received a call to schedule a face-to-face interview next week for a position as an Employee Relations Consultant with a fairly prominent company here in the Valley of the Sun. Lately, I have had more calls about jobs "than a little bit" (that is phrase I learned from my cousin while living in Atlanta.- HA!) But why have the interviews starting pouring in? Because I followed Jesus' advice in Matthew 6:33. I stopped seeking for a job and started seeking after Him. All my needs and wants are met.

The kids have adjusted to their daycare very well. I knew that NyCee would be okay but Tyler took a couple of days to grow accustom to the new arrangement. But working this week has afforded me the opportunity to really stop and think about a full-time job. Right now, I get off at 2:00p and by the time I pick up the kids, get home, cook dinner, read stories, give baths, and goodnight kisses at 7:30p, I am pooped. My job is only 10 minutes away and the kids daycare is down the street from my job (about 5-6 mins). After all of that, I have to sit down at my computer and attempt to complete my school assignments before 10:00p so that I can shower and get some sleep. So now, I am trying to figure out if a full-time job is worth all of that right now.

So that was the "WAHOO" part of my week. The "boy that sucks" part is that I failed one part of my CDL exam so I have to return to the MVD (Motor Vehicle Division) next Friday and retake it. It was a four part exam and I failed the one part by one question. ALWAYS GO WITH YOUR FIRST THOUGHT! But it's okay. I will zip thru it next time.

Back to the excel project.....


But when He, the Spirit of Truth (the Truth-giving Spirit) comes, He will guide you into all the Truth (the whole, full Truth). For He will not speak His own message [on His own authority]; but He will tell whatever He hears [from the Father; He will give the message that has been given to Him], and He will announce and declare to you the things that are to come [that will happen in the future]. John 16:13 Amplified Bible

Faith Walk

Moving to Phoenix, this time around, was truly a walk of faith. I knew in my heart that moving was the right thing to do. It just took a WHOLE LOTTA faith to actually do it seeing as how I didn't have job, no job prospects (other than substitute teaching which I really did NOT want to do), no interviews lined up-nothing. I packed up my kids and moved on faith.

Now, some people thought that I was being "Flighty Dayna" and just flying by the seat of my pants. I promise, that this time, I put a lot of thought and prayer into this decision.

Since moving, I have had seven, yes, seven job interviews. Two of which came this week. Now, given the current state of the economy, I consider that a true blessing from God. When I didn't get the job two weeks ago, I was bummed out because I thought that I "needed" a full time job to take care of me and my children. Wrong! What I needed to do was stretch my faith and remember that God feeds the birds surely He will take care of us (Matthew 6:26-31).

I have received blessing after blessing. All my bills are paid in full and on time. Remember, I just started working on 09/18 and 10/20 respectively.Financial blessings have come to me to meet that need. Yesterday, I received a call about a full time position and had a phone interview. I am not really interested in the position but I do not pass up opportunities to brush up on my interviewing skills. Today, while in training, my phone rang and it was another company calling to conduct a phone interview. Again, I am not interested in the position but will seize the opportunity for a face-to-face interview if one is offered.

I am not interested because my current situation works very well for me. I work one part-time job Monday-Friday (2 hours in the morning and 2 hours in the afternoon) and my other part-time job on Saturday nights. The kids are in daycare all day and I have time to complete my schoolwork during my down time. This opens up my evenings for rest and time with the kids. Actual quality time with them. And if by the time I complete my doctoral program, NyCee will be in Kindergarten thereby reducing my daycare cost.

One of the pastors at my church teaches, "Short term pain reaps long term rewards." What am I saying? It would be better for me to stay at my part-time job (for which I am receiving state retirement points and matching 401k benefits) and complete my doctoral program rather than take a full-time job for $40k and drive myself mad trying to be superwoman. Yes, in the short term, I will be on a strict budget. But the long term reward is worth it!

I just think about how awesome God is to have even opened the doors of employment opportunities. It just reminds me that He has everything under control. But I had to do my part which was act on my faith.

The Flutist

For the past several days, NyCee has been walking around the house playing her "flute." Which of course are highlighters clipped together. What amazed me is: 1. she actually knows the colors of each highlighter. She said, "Look Mommy. Pink, orange, yellow. I play the flute." And then she starts to hum a little tune. The second thing is that she is recalling an episode of Dora the Explorer. She can nearly replay the entire episode out loud. The little tune that she hums is what Dora hummed while playing her flute.

NyCee even uses Spanish words, in the correct context, on several occasions. That little girl is so smart. I was thinking that next year I will get her involved in some sort of activity. Either playing an instrument or sports. I think I want to get her involved in swimming or gymnastics.

Fabulous

A couple of weeks ago, I had a conversation with my mother in which I told her that I have lost a lot of weight. So much weight, that all my brand new suits are too big. I had four pairs of the pants altered but they are still too big and the jackets look sloppy. So I will be giving them away to someone. I don't know who but I am sure someone can use them.

Anyway, my mother asked me what size am I currently wearing. I replied, "A 4." She exclaimed, "A 4? Are you eating? Do you have money for food? Why didn't you call if you didn't have money to buy food?" I laughed and told her that we are eating. We eat three meals a day plus two snacks. I have been small all of my life with the exception of after NyCee was born. (I think that was because I went through a phase of depression due to all the drama in my life at that time.)

Even though my world was a bit chaotic during my pregnancy and after Tyler was born, I exercised everyday and ate fairly healthy while pregnant with him. So today, I like how I look. I love my life and quite frankly--I look absolutely FABULOUS as a size 4. So mommy, this picture is for you:

"Look at what I can do at 6 months old."

"It's been six months since I entered the world and already, I try to have tantrums by stiffing my body and screaming until mommy comes into the room. (Notice I said try because usually mommy ignores me and doesn't respond until I act like I have some sense.) I play with my toes, fingers, and oh yeah, some thing between my legs that I haven't figured out how to work yet. I pull my sister's hair and try to eat it. I have learned how to roll on my stomach but then I have to stay like that until mommy comes to help me.

Today, mommy took my sister and me to a place named Childtime where we will go on Monday because my mommy starts her new job. I will like it there I am sure. So far, my life is good. I was born in Michigan, visited Georgia, and now I am home in Arizona. Life is fabulous and getting better each day."

Tip-Toe, Tip-Toe, Tip-Toe

When Tyler woke up early Saturday morning, around 6:00a or so, I walked into the room to get him. In the process, I noticed that NyCee was in "her" spot in my bed. I do not even remember her coming into my room. Normally, she yells my name at the top of her lungs and then climbs into my bed.



But the kids are making progress with respect to sleeping all night in their own beds. When NyCee wakes up, depending on what time it is, I put her back in her bed. Last night, she slept in her bed all night. She walked into my room this morning and exclaimed, "Mommy. I wake up" as she stretched her arms in the air. As we were walking out the bedroom, she turned around and said, "Mommy, Shhh (with her finger on her lips). Buddy is sleeping. We tip-toe, tip-toe (as she walked on her tip-toes out of the room).

This is the day the LORD has made; we will rejoice and be glad in it. (Psalm 118:24)

Valley Visitors

My friends Dacia and Stephanie surprised me with a visit today. When I was in Atlanta, I was unable to see Dacia due to schedule conflicts. Therefore, it was so good to see her.

We just caught up and enjoyed each other's company. We swapped baby delivery stories and other "unimportant" life events. They both told me that the "Valley of the Sun" really agrees with me. While walking around the mall, I snapped this photo of NyCee. I don't even have words to type. Those little legs crossed are too much for me.

Now, I just have to get my other friend Allie, along with her children Mallie and Max out here. And my friend in Chicago. Maybe now that the weather is cooling off, they will take a trip out here.

Dacia and Stephanie also helped me figure out all the features of the stroller that I purchased for the kids. I didn't realize that Tyler's car seat was not supposed to be placed on the stroller itself. Once I removed the car seat and just strapped him in, it was so much lighter and easier to manuver. Also, both seats recline! Who knew? Yes, I know: I had another infamous "Little Red Stick" moment.

The Blob

NyCee wanted some cookies so I thought I would try my hand at making a batch. How hard could it be, right? I opened the package, added the egg and the butter, mixed until smooth and used two teaspoons to place it on the cookie sheet like Sandra Lee taught me. But Sandra's cookies do not turn out like this:



I will just stick to either Vaniila Wafers or the cookies that you just place on the cookie sheet and bake.

My Cup is Full

The LORD is my Shepherd [to feed, guide, and shield me], I shall not lack.
He makes me lie down in [fresh, tender] green pastures; He leads me beside the still and restful waters.

He refreshes and restores my life (my self); He leads me in the paths of righteousness [uprightness and right standing with Him--not for my earning it, but] for His name's sake.

Yes, though I walk through the [deep, sunless] valley of the shadow of death, I will fear or dread no evil, for You are with me; Your rod [to protect] and Your staff [to guide], they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my [brimming] cup runs over.

Surely or only goodness, mercy, and unfailing love shall follow me all the days of my life, and through the length of my days the house of the Lord [and His presence] shall be my dwelling place.
Psalm 23 (Amplified Bible)

After spending nearly 30 plus hours thinking of myself as a failure, I decided that was enough. Now that the funk cloud of failure has lifted, I can clearly see that I really didn't want the job with company #1. It just didn't feel right. Neither did company #2. What I wanted was the stability of a consistent paycheck. Well, I have that.

The part time job that I will start on 10/20 will actually work very well for me. Because I still have two classes to complete my MBA, I will be able to work on my school assignments during my down time. The kids will be at daycare and that will free up my evenings to spend some time with them before bedtime. So it truly is all in how you look at it.

I wasted all those hours recapping every failure in my life. Well, what good did that do? What snapped me back to reality was the vision of Jesus on the cross. He looked defeated also but He knew the end of the story. Oftentimes He stated, “Destroy this temple, and in three days I will raise it up.” Then the Jews said, “It has taken forty-six years to build this temple, and will You raise it up in three days?” But He was speaking of the temple of His body" (John 2:19-21).

Jesus also told me, "In this godless world you will continue to experience difficulties. But take heart! I've conquered the world" (John 16:33, The Message). Walking around with my head hung down about a job that I didn't really want is ridiculous. So like Sandra Lee says, "I am going to put on a pretty little party dress" and be of good cheer.

I am reading a book titled, "Battlefield of the Mind" by Joyce Meyer and it is so good. I suggest everyone read it because how you see yourself in your mind really does control your actions and behaviors. "For as a man thinks in his heart, so his he" (Proverbs 23:7a) If I allowed my mind to replay failures, then a failure I would be. However, I "Do [not] fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.

Summing it all up, friends, I'd say you'll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse. Put into practice what you learned from me, what you heard and saw and realized. Do that, and God, who makes everything work together, will work you into his most excellent harmonies" (Phillipans 4:7-9 The Message).

Besides, who could stay in a depressed funk with this kid around.

The Wait Is Over

I didn't get either position that I interviewed for on Friday. I knew that when I left each company on Friday but it doesn't make it any less disappointing.

I will just have to work two jobs to take care of the kids. It just feels like I can not get a break. But God said,

"Before I shaped you in the womb,
I knew all about you.
Before you saw the light of day,
I had holy plans for you:
Jeremiah 1:5

I want to cry. I want to scream. I want to give up. But I can not bring myself to do any of those things. My kids didn't ask to be here so I have to keep moving forward for them. Sadly, people would rather see me fail; rather than to encourage me. I think that is what hurts the most.

Bold

Let us then fearlessly and confidently and boldly draw near to the throne of grace (the throne of God's unmerited favor to us sinners), that we may receive mercy [for our failures] and find grace to help in good time for every need [appropriate help and well-timed help, coming just when we need it] (Hebrews 4:16).

Last night while I was getting ready for bed, I heard NyCee shuffle out of her bed and tip-toe into my room. She looked at me and climbed into my bed, getting into "her" spot, curled right up, and went to sleep. The entire scenario lasted about 5 mins but it was so profound to me because that is what God expects for us to do. NyCee knew that she could crawl into my bed and find comfort and peace to rest. So we ought to know that we can boldly approach God's throne for help to endure every situation in life.

My morning started at 300a with a text message with some rather unsettling news. It was not unto death, meaning no one died or anything. But it was just something that I didn't need added to my plate. Let me back up.

God has really been awesome by opening several doors of employment opportunities. I have a part-time job where I work on Saturdays nights and began that job on 09/18. Wednesday, I received another job offer for an additional part time job that is 4 hours a day 5 days a week with a little higher pay. Today, I had two job interviews. Both were openings by God. For the first company, I received an email from the recruiter who was trying to contact me but because I changed my cell number. Therefore, she sent me an email. My cousin put me in touch with her neighbor who has worked for the company for 18 years and she provided me with some insight and spoke very highly of the company. Then on Monday, I received an email from the second company I interviewed with today, stating that there was an opening for a position they felt I was better suited for versus the one I submitted my resume for. So of course, I was so excited at the blessings God granted me.

Now, think about it. Some people are trying to find one job and I have 4 job opportunities. That is awesome! But today, the news I received at 300a was only the beginning. I went to the interview at Company #1 and was subjected to three rounds of interviews with 2 interviewers in each session. The problem: the facility is 35 minutes away from my house and is open 24/7 which means I could be required to report to work at various times on various days. Obviously that would not work for me as a single mother.

When I arrived at Company #2, the recruiter advised me that just this morning, the requirements for the position had changed and while I was a strong candidate, I no longer fit the criteria that the hiring manager is looking for. Nonetheless, I still met with the hiring manager and he was honest and told me that I meet the requirements 80% but he needs someone with the other 20%. However, he will keep my resume in the "mix" for consideration.

So now, I have a choice. I can either continue to believe that God opened these doors for a reason and because He is Omnipotent, He knew the work hours of Company 1 and the requirements of Company 2. Or I can be like the Israelites who God delivered out of Egypt, provided all needs while traveling to the Promised Land, confirmed that the Promised Land was in fact what God said, "We went to the land to which you sent us and, oh! It does flow with milk and honey! Just look at this fruit! (Numbers 13:27), but never entered the Promise Land because of doubt and unbelief. Isn't it safe to assume that God knew there were giants in the Promised Land when He told Moses, "Send men to scout out the country of Canaan that I am GIVING to the People of Israel?" (Numbers 13:1). So it is safe to assume that God was well aware of the giants that I faced today, right?

Last night, I didn't fully understand what God was showing me. Today, I do. I have to stand boldly on His word and His promises in order to enter my Promised Land.

Too Much Time There

You know you spend too much time in one place when your two year old asks, "Mommy, we go to Wal-Mart" when you pull in the parking lot.

A Conversation at 2 a.m.

"Ma" NyCee bellows out at the top of her lungs.

"Yes, baby."

"I watch TV." I turn to see her standing next to my bed holding the remote control.

"No TV. You have to go back to sleep." I carried her back to her bed.

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30 minutes later

"Ma"

"Yes NyCee"

"I stuck in my booty."

"Huh? Come to mommy."

"I stuck in my booty." So I regain some sort of consciousness and prepare to walk to her room. Only to find her climbing on top of me. I asked if she had to go to the potty.

"No ma'am. No potty."

"Well, what's the matter?"

"I stuck in my booty."

I finally figured out that she had a wedgie.

"Hey, look at what I have found."

I have noticed, over the past two weeks, that when I change Tyler's diaper, he immediately starts grabbing and pulling on his little penis. Now, this is my first boy baby but is that normal? I have checked to make sure he didn't have a diaper rash and to confirm that nothing is irritating him. And when he does it, I tell him to stop and he just starts laughing. I am going to go with the assumption that this is normal?!?!? NyCee never did anything like that at her age.

I wonder what he will discover next.

"Mommy, Get Up"

Here in Phoenix, the sun comes up around 530a or 545a. Generally, Tyler wakes up about 630a or 645a. Today, NyCee was up first. She popped up on the bed saying, "Wake up mommy. I hungry" while rubbing her tummy. I said, "Okay baby. Please give mommy just a few more minutes." Well, my request was honored with literally just a few more minutes. I have to figure out a way to get my children to understand that during the week, rising at 630a is acceptable. But on Saturday, we need to sleep in at least until 800a.

A Keeper

How darn cute is this? He looks like his big cousin. Apparently, they both had a long day.

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After reading another blog this evening, I watched this video that she had posted on her site. It is sad and disturbing but important information to share. We must pray for our candidates and for God's direction when voting.

My Thoughtful Girl

Earlier this afternoon I was on the couch relaxing while NyCee was playing. At some point, I dozed off and when I woke up I was covered with Tyler's blanket. NyCee went to their room and retrieved the blanket out of his crib by sliding it through the bed rails and covered me with it. I woke up and said, "Thank you baby." She replied, "You are welcome mommy. One second (while holding up her finger). I'll be right back." I replied, "Okay" as I chuckled.

When she returned, she had the bible that I use to read to them before bedtime. She climbed on the couch and told me that she was going to read me a bible verse. I smiled and sat there while she "read" to me.

Adjusted

Well, it is just a few days over one month that the kids and I have settled into our new home. It actually seems longer than that some days because we are into our routine. I have completed the membership classes at the church and work in the nursery department on Saturday and Sunday nights. I really love my church as it offers so many programs and classes to help you live a full, happy life.

Dr. Tom (click on the "teacher" link to see a clip from one of his sermons)is very down to earth and approachable. He and Mrs. Maureen greet first time visitors after every service. The church is very warm and inviting. As soon as I walked through the door, I felt at home. They have been married 41 years and their sons are in the ministry as well. You can see the fruits of their life and it is wonderful. Additionally, their daughter-in-laws are apart of the ministry as well. They lead by example; which is vitally important.

NyCee really enjoys church as well. When I drive into the parking lot she exclaims, "My class. My class." The interaction at church as been very good for her. Especially because she hasn't been in "school" for several months. Last week, we were really busy with membership classes, singles' conference, and date night. (I think date night is so cool. The church offers free child care on Saturday nights to allow mom and dad or a single parent, some much needed alone time.) And of course we attended service yesterday morning and returned that evening as I had to serve in the nursery ministry. Needless to say, NyCee was exhausted. So much so, that she slept in her own bed until daybreak.

My church is literally 5 minutes up the road so it makes it easy to incorporate those responsibilities into my routine.

You may notice the bummer pad which should be on Ty's crib between the wall and NyCee's bed. Well, Ty doesn't like the pad because he can't see anyone when he wakes up. And NyCee needed it because she fell between the wall and the bed one night and began screaming "Help" in Spanish. I guess all those episodes of Dora the Explorer and Go Diego Go are really paying off.

The only hiccup so far is that the air conditioning went out in my truck. Thank God summer is almost over and I do not run errands during the hottest part of the day. Also, most of our travels are relatively close to the house. The other day, I parked the car and was preparing to get NyCee out of her car seat. She stated, "Mommy, I sweating." All I could do was apologize and get her in the building as soon as possible.

The Great Pile-up

Even before having children, I did not wear outside shoes in the house. Yet, I always have the same problem:

Several pairs of shoes end up at the front door and it's not until I can barely get through the door that I put them back in my closet.

I have to find a better system.

Exciting Time

There is so much going on. I can not discuss it right now. But it is ALL so very exciting!

Let us all come forward and draw near with true (honest and sincere) hearts in unqualified assurance and absolute conviction engendered by faith (by that leaning of the entire human personality on God in absolute trust and confidence in His power, wisdom, and goodness), having our hearts sprinkled and purified from a guilty (evil) conscience and our bodies cleansed with pure water.

So let us seize and hold fast and retain without wavering the hope we cherish and confess and our acknowledgement of it, for He Who promised is reliable (sure) and faithful to His word.
Hebrews 10:22-23 Amplified Bible

I will post all about soon. I promise! But God is AWESOME and He is FAITHFUL!!!!

Over He Goes

For the past few days, Tyler has been rocking back and forth when he is on the floor playing. Well today, he finally rolled himself over. I tried to capture his big smile when I congratulated him on his accomplishment. I just love to see him smile.

My Fair Lady

Before leaving the house, I grab my keys, sunglasses, and purse off of the counter by the door. Lately, NyCee stops at the door and says, "Mommy, where are my glasses and purse?" She will not leave the house with out them. She is quite the little lady.

Of course, the items end up staying in my car (which is a mess by the way) because we both forget to get them out when we come home. The back seat of my truck looks more like her toy box than a truck. Any volunteers to come to the Valley of the Sun and clean it out for me? It is absolutely beautiful here.

Interpretation

It's a matter of interpretation. Click on the link and watch the video. I think you will enjoy it. I know I did!

Bam! Right in the face!

This one burped in my face-twice.

This one sneezed in my face.

And darn near simultaneously, they both passed gas in my face.

After being bathed both of the kids were lying on NyCee's bed naked. I was putting lotion on their bodies in preparation for the night clothes. When, BAM! Ty expelled his gas and NyCee starting laughing saying, "Bother pooted mommy." During her laughing spell, she expelled her gas to which she did not laugh. She just smiled and said, "Excuse me brother."

Just one of the many joys of motherhood.

Midnight Melody

After lying in bed reading for a while, I finally fell into a deep, restful sleep. When all of a sudden I was awakened by the sounds of both of the kids crying. I expect to hear Ty crying in the night but not NyCee. Generally, NyCee just gets out of her bed around 4a and comes into my room. But when I walked into the kids' room, I saw NyCee lying on the floor tangled in the bedsheets and Tyler kicking his legs in the air.

Absolute music to my ears. Both my kids crying at 1030p.

My Brown Eyed Boy

Every morning, Ty wakes up with the biggest grin on his face that you have ever seen. He is so cute as he lays there playing with his feet and pulling on my shirt as if he is telling me to wake up.

Tonight, I decided to cut his hair. GASPS! I didn't use clippers. I bought a pair of sheers (which are nothing more than scissors used to cut hair). Now you are probably thinking to yourself, "Why in the world did she do that?" Well, let's be real here for a minute. We know that black hair needs to be permed otherwise, it will look like a huge, nappy mess. Let's just be real. When NyCee was his age, I used to put different hair bows and things in her hair so that the nappiness did not appear as prevalent. Well, I can't put pretty little hair bows in Tyler's hair. So, I cut it down so that it will not look nappy and kinky. He really looks so cute and when he gets his first hair cut, by a professional barber, he will be just a little adorable ball of joy!

Already

Already, NyCee is a fan of the TV show Hannah Montana. Lately, she has been asking to watch Hannah Montana every day. Darn near every hour! I thought I had a few years before she would get hooked on something like that. Watch out Dora The Explorer, you have some competition.

Respectful Request

I know that the calls, emails, and text messages that I have received have meant to be an expression of concern for me. But they have really been negative. Please, if you are planning to call me out of concern, then call with a positive, can do, Dayna is an overcomer attitude. Believe me, I, more than anyone, am well aware of the gravity of my situation. Every day, before my foot hits the floor, I declare:

This is the day the LORD has made;
We will rejoice and be glad in it.

Save now, I pray, O LORD;
O LORD, I pray, send now prosperity.
Psalm 118: 24-25

It is not easy being in this situation. Often, I think to myself, "What kind of person brings two children into the world with no way to support them?" There are days when I wish I could go back 10 years and modify my path. But then I think, "I wouldn't be the person I am today. And I definitely wouldn't have NyCee and Tyler." I thank God that He allowed me the privilege of being their mother.

When another day ends, and no calls about jobs have come in, I have to remember:

For the [true] love of God is this: that we do His commands [keep His ordinances and are mindful of His precepts and teaching]. And these orders of His are not irksome (burdensome, oppressive, or grievous).

For whatever is born of God is victorious over the world; and this is the victory that conquers the world, even our faith.

Who is it that is victorious over [that conquers] the world but he who believes that Jesus is the Son of God [who adheres to, trusts in, and relies on that fact]?
1 John 5:3-5 Amplified Translation

If I allowed my mind to run wild, I would focus on the fact that I quit two really good jobs. The first one was out of arrogance. The second was a sacrifice that was necessary. But no matter the reason, I would be much better off had I not made those decisions. But those decisions were made two years and one year ago, respectively. So I can not keep beating myself up about the decision. God's word says,

"There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus,[a] who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit. 2 For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has made me free from the law of sin and death. 3 For what the law could not do in that it was weak through the flesh, God did by sending His own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh, on account of sin: He condemned sin in the flesh, 4 that the righteous requirement of the law might be fulfilled in us who do not walk according to the flesh but according to the Spirit."
Romans 8:1-4

That's a fancy way of saying, that God has forgiven me for being stupid. Therefore, I must forgive myself. So please, when you think of me, do what I do:

Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.

Summing it all up, friends, I'd say you'll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse. Put into practice what you learned from me, what you heard and saw and realized. Do that, and God, who makes everything work together, will work you into his most excellent harmonies.
Philippians 4:7-9 The Message Translation

I love you and pray:

God bless you and keep you,

God smile on you and gift you,

God look you full in the face
and make you prosper.
Numbers 6:24-26 The Message Translation

This situation is temporary and subject to change suddenly! :~D

In Awe...

My day started with a text message at 6a Phoenix time, where my mom exclaimed that she has the Arizona state quarter. This was very exciting news because we have been collecting the commemorative coins since the US Mint started printing them and only Arizona and Hawaii remain to complete the set. When I became coherent enough to respond, I asked where was my quarter? Generally, she receives two quarters at a time and always puts one aside for me. She replied that she only received one but would send me one when she got it. I replied, Good stuff!

Lately, I have taken liking to a new saying. When asked how I am, I respond, "Fantastic! And if I wait five minutes, it will get better!" So later this morning around 10a, I was preparing to attend a bible study at my new church when I received a call from my mom. She was so jovial that I could hardly understand her at first. She exclaimed, "I got an Arizona quarter for you!" She explained that she went to purchase a smoothie, because she had never had one prior to today, and when given the change, the quarter was there. Look how much God cares about the small things that He gave me the quarter that I wanted. But there's more...

Then, I received a call from someone telling me that he received an email about a job that he applied for back in February. "Due to economic conditions," the company had a hiring freeze but the freeze has been lifted and he will begin working 10/13. This is the job that he really wanted. Again, God is so good. But wait, there's more...

Later, I was text messaging with a friend who advised that she received a full 100 points on her research project. Now for those of you who are not in school, this will not be a big deal. For those of you who have had to write a thesis or research project, you feel her joy. Just a few years ago, she suffered the loss of her mother and sister within days of one another. She has had to endure countless surgeries and is still suffering the effects of the initial injury. Yet, she has completed three (3) degrees and been on the President's list at our University during the completion of each degree. The President's list means that she has held a 4.0 GPA while pursuing all three (3) degrees. She will have her Master's in less than 2 weeks and will begin her Ph.D program in October. But wait, there's more...

Another friend sent me a text message advising that she is able to work her part-time job, at her flexibility this month, to make up the difference from her full-time job. She is a flight attendant and generally works a lot of hours every month which takes her away from her husband and son. We were just talking a couple of nights ago about how God ALWAYS provides. She constructed her schedule last month and was no where near the number of flight hours that she normally holds. But yet, God has made a way for her to work, be home, and attend to all her affairs this month. But wait, there's more...

My cousin Cari, not only did she battle and survive breast cancer, she underwent brain surgery to have a tumor removed and was out shopping at Target a couple of days later! Her congnitive abilities are all in tact! God is amazing!

So far, I have received news that five (5) people I know have received jobs. I am excited because I know there is no partiality with God. (Ephesians 6:9). The following scripture best sums up how great God truly is towards us:

"God can pour on the blessings in astonishing ways so that you're ready for anything and everything, more than just ready to do what needs to be done. As one psalmist puts it,

He throws caution to the winds,
giving to the needy in reckless abandon.
His right-living, right-giving ways
never run out, never wear out.

This most generous God who gives seed to the farmer that becomes bread for your meals is more than extravagant with you. He gives you something you can then give away, which grows into full-formed lives, robust in God, wealthy in every way, so that you can be generous in every way, producing with us great praise to God."
2 Corinthians 9:8-11 (The Message)